TUESDAY MORNING

5:04 AM
Okay, well,

I’m driving home. Yep, it was a really long night. They just ran the shit out of us until the end. Oh my goodness. Yeah but you know it’s more over time. And I heard that we are working another Saturday soon and that makes me happy.

What else? So well

Uh, I don’t know. I’m going to mess with that guitar. Peter G gave me. Peter gibbed. Give to me. Give me gave me. Yeah. Yeah, that time is my fault. Okay. I’m not talking.

Uh, well speaking well I don’t know, hahaha.

But it’s cold. I think I have just enough gas. Just enough gas to get to work. And back tomorrow. And I don’t want to ask my ex-wife for any more money. I need to just

You know.

Stop spending money on shit. I did, here’s what I did. Okay, last week, last weekend. Valentine’s Day weekend. I got so depressed. That I got alcohol and I got drunk and I spent probably twenty 5 dollars on it. Okay, This is why I don’t need to drink either but like I haven’t I’ve been good, you know. But uh, I know I got 2 6 packs of like really nice. Like craft. Is that what it’s called? Craft beer. It’s made by a local Brewery or something. And I don’t know, it was uh, really delicious beer.

Okay. Uh, the brake light has been on in my car for the last few days. It’ll go come on and go off. I’m going to check and see if I got. Just need to put brake fluid. In

Probably and uh, it came on a lot though, when I first bought this car and then it went away forever until

I don’t know, last Thursday or something. Yeah.

So I’m going to try to put brake fluid in it. Wednesday. I got to put oil in it too. And then see where I’m at. But yeah, I think I’m okay on gas back and forth to work. Uh, until I get paid. I thought about putting in another PTO day for Thursday and just having a 4 Day weekend, but you know what? I need to save my PTO. I have 7 days left.

Tonight. Wasn’t that bad? I don’t know. I’ve just, I’ve just been really sad. But, uh, oh yeah. What I was saying, and I bought those enchiladas was like 20, something dollars. So it’s, uh, I spent like 45 dollars. I got Mexican food Sunday that Sunday, right? Yeah, I did. And, uh, That was like, 50 bucks. I didn’t have to do that, you know, and I got Whole Foods. I spent like $40 at Whole Foods. Saturday too on just

Being a pig. Is what I did. Yeah, Saturday made me really sad. It did. And so did Sunday, I was just sad.

But I do, I want to take Thursday off, but I don’t think I should, but I want to Yeah, but it’s only February and I’ve already used half my PTO days. Isn’t that dumb? Yeah. Well, I’ve also The, every PTO day I’ve taken, Um, I have done something with the kids except that time. Work was canceled because of the weather. Yeah. That’s uh I used PTO to cover that day so I wouldn’t lose any money. I think I’m just going to save my PTO. Honestly. Yeah, I am off Friday. I think I’m going to get up. I’m going to go to Whole Foods. I’m thinking this far ahead because I’ll have money tomorrow.

Tomorrow afternoon.

But I think I’m going to try to manage this, check a little better. I’m not going to uh, I’m going to invest in like Bulk items. That’s the whole reason I have a Sam’s Club membership hahaha. Yeah.

And uh, I’m going to

Buy enough SpaghettiOs. To get me through.

You know, as long as it takes I need to stock up on lunch food.

And now that all the roommates are gone, it’s just me and the 2 roommates. I have I feel better about using the kitchen and stuff the couple that lived there. That’s all they did. They would cook shit all the time and fucking get on everybody’s nerves uh Yeah. I mean, they were always in the kitchen. Yeah, and the other, dude, I don’t even know. I think he worked, they both ended up working at Buffalo Wild Wings. I’m not going to get started on that, okay? I just feel better that, um,

You know, they’re not there and there was supposed to be some person moving in. But they said it was going to be a few more months or some crap. I don’t know. I don’t even know. These are

Well, I guess the worst thing I’m going to say a generalization about The people I’ve met up here like, roommates and stuff through my roommates. They’re all a bunch of fucking flakes. Yeah, they are. They’re all a bunch of, uh, Just flaky ass bunch of suburban, white kids. Haha Yeah, and they don’t have like, They’re just flaky. Flippant

Oh my gosh, like an example of this is, I was supposed to uh, do some work and I did actually I was supposed to do more work. I did some work for, uh, 1 of my roommates friends, they were like a couple. And I was going to fix their fence. Okay, and I dug these 3, fucking massive holes that took me dang I was well, it took took me about

It was a lot of work, I don’t know. Uh,

I guess it took me about 4 hours to dig those holes and I put cement in them and set the uh posts and everything. They had a level and I had to get all that going. And they were like, yeah, we’re going to, you know, get you out here, you know, at least once or twice a month because we have a bunch of stuff we need done, you know? And I told them well, don’t worry about paying me for this, you know, like, just let me know, you know, we were, I was supposed to come back and do a bunch of more stuff and get paid for it. Essentially, I just did all that shit to be super fucking nice. You know. And uh, Nothing? I never heard anything back from them. I guess I did the hardest work though. I did. I did the really hard part and I guess they didn’t want to spend the money on, you know, getting me back to do other stuff. Which is fine. It’s just nobody told me anything. And it’s weird though because the chick uh, she’s over at the house sometimes and she won’t even look at me anymore. It’s like, it’s weird. It’s like, okay. Well, you know, I did y’all like huge favor And nobody told me anything 1 way or the other. I think the next thing she messaged me about was if I could if I knew how to uh, fix a, like, a window screen or something. It’s like, oh yeah, you need like a little rolly tool. You know, it’s not that hard and um, I don’t know.

And they’re all just Like that like my roommates almost named her gosh. Haha Yeah. The boss lady roommate. I have done everything, I’ve done a shit ton of stuff for her for peanuts. That anybody else that would have cost?

Probably, I’ve probably done a couple thousand at least dollars worth of work for her or more. Probably more. Yeah, if you change count, changing out the toilet and the sink, fixing that Dang sink, changing out. The fans. I think my house remodeling boss. He used to get, I can’t remember. I want to say, he charged like $40 to change out a fan. You know, stuff like that and to change out a toilet was something like that too. You know, like he would show, I can’t remember exactly what he charged, cuz I got paid by the hour. And he got. Paid by the job, you know? He’d be like, well that toilet that toilet that toilet, you know, sixty dollars each. Because it’s a pain in the ass to change the toilet out. I want to say like I want to say it was like, 40 bucks. Yeah, to change it. He had and it varied depending on the people. You know, he was working for but uh that room I painted that was a $100 job. A $500 job. I said a 1500.

Dollar job. But what the fuck? 1500.

It won’t pick up the dollars though if I say $1,000.

It says $1,000. Like what the hell kind of sense does this app make? This is, I don’t know why it bothers me so much, I’m crazy. It was an insane amount of work. I spent my entire Thanksgiving break doing that bullshit too. 33 hours in that shit. Oh my god and She got it for $250. But yeah, that was a 1500. Dollar job. Yeah. I had to pause a little bit in between all that 1,500 job.

Yeah, well it didn’t say that. It won’t pick up the dollars though when I say that 1,500 job.

It won’t put dollars.

That’s so stupid. What the fuck? Anyways. Yeah. Um, totally lost on her. She has absolutely no concept of what all it really took to get that bullshit to look as awesome as it does. And when it was all said and done I felt extremely taken advantage of. Haha, oh it Sucked.

But I did some other work, uh, Changed fucking a pump the sink pump for this other chick who uh she was like, she rented a studio space at at the studio. Some asshole had put in this fancy new pump that was apparently not powerful enough to replace the old one that had stopped working. Stopped pumping. It would turn on but it wouldn’t pump anything. Haha And It took me like a Well, like 2 h 2, afternoons, I guess. So, about 6 hours. Yeah, to change out this thing and I did it for $30. She gave me 75 bucks. 45 of that was parts. And the rest of it was just, you know, I did it to be nice. But, um, somebody who had put those in had charged her, she told me they charged her like a 1,000 dollars. One time and maybe $500 another time. I think something crazy like that. You know what the only thing wrong with the pump was? The filter was stopped up with weird bullshit like flower stems and construction paper clippings. Haha And I felt like I should have probably charged her a couple hundred dollars. But I didn’t, I did it to be super nice. Did you think they appreciated that? No. They probably think I’m fucking stupid. That’s how I feel. That’s like, I don’t know. I went off. I made all those posts password Protected. I’m not going to go off about a rant like on a rant about that again, it’s just

They were just flaky, they’re all just you know and none of them know how to do anything real like that, but they can tell you all about you know like New Age spiritual stuff and like, you know, Yoga and energy healing. Reiki and massage therapy. Some of them are really good with crafts and art in General.

Um,

And Uh I’m just I’m trying to think of like the stuff. They do know like nerd stuff. They’re all into like Star Wars and Dungeons and Dragons. Um, don’t get me started though. Like I, I’m actually yeah, don’t get started. I’m thinking, like, I could go off like borderline too much talking about stuff, but I mean, They’re just not my people. You know, they’re like they remind me of my ex-wife’s friends. Yeah, they’re kind of like that’s the demographic. Uh like my ex-wife and her sister and they’re not as upscale though as as my ex sister-in-law’s friends.

You know, uh, but actually some of them are ya. I think my roommate, her sister, I can’t remember where she lives, but she Sells paintings for like crazy stuff. I said $10,000 and shit. Yeah, crazy stuff. It’ll pick up dollars.

No it won’t. It just it did it that 1 time 10,000.

But not the dollar.

$10,000.

Piece of shit. But it did it that 1 time. Oh now it did the dollar sign. Okay. Yeah.

5:18 AM
Me haha. I said me, gosh. Yeah, thanks.

Almost home. But yeah I got to figure maybe it’s just brake fluid. And I can’t really do anything about it until tomorrow afternoon.

Oh man. Oh my goodness, what a day. But I have Ramen. And noodles and all that stuff. I don’t know. Just thinking about all that stuff is like cuz I thought I was so excited when I moved up here, you know I was going to meet a whole bunch of new people and make a bunch of new friends and oh no, gosh not at all. It’s like I said, like, uh, that roommate dude, that moved out the furry guy. At first, I was like, going to try to be his pal, you know, and he was a fucking asshole, like, I don’t know what his deal was, honestly.

I think he had a little man like a Napoleon complex kind of mixed with uh he was just totally full of shit. And, Couldn’t really, you know, he was just full of his own crap. I don’t know. It was weird. I think I intimidated him and he overcompensated for it but that’s so fucked up. You know, it’s like grow up, dude. He was in his 30s. I don’t know.

I remember 1 time though I was like uh cuz I was I was talking about having kids and you know I’m the real deal I’m a dad like I’m a dad for real and he was like you know I was like you got any kids? I didn’t know him that well I was just asking him questions and he’s like no but I’m a father figure. With just a pinch of resentment in his voice. You know, like he’s a father figure. It’s like who the hell? Calls themselves that like he isn’t the kind of father figure I’d ever fucking, you know, like God, you know, my kids are like, who’s this creepy guy? My daughter? He creeped my daughter out like, pretty bad. It was I don’t know that right there is all I really ever need to know about him. Yeah. And I haven’t talked about any of this stuff. With like anybody else the other roommates or anything? Haha

Oh, there’s an ambulance behind me, but it’s going slow.

Anyways I don’t know blah blah blah blah people. Hey I don’t have this up. Yeah, on my um, any of my stuff so I can say, whatever the hell I want without worrying about people fucking finding it, or looking at it, cuz nobody cares that much. I can’t imagine anybody.

Caring enough to find this to Google this fucking shit. Yeah. Like they, you know, I don’t know, I just I’m in a different like mode now or something.

But what’s so crazy? Is people at work? Yeah. Like I can tell which ones we’re looking at my stuff because they look at me kind of like disappointed. It’s like no, you don’t understand. I had to get off Facebook and it’s going to be a while. I’ll probably post uh the kids, you know, our adventures and stuff and all my dumb shit on Instagram for a while. Even though my Instagram is private and eventually I’m going to open everything back up but it that’s going to be a little while.

I deleted Facebook off my phone. Yeah. Oh my goodness.

On off both phones. So, it’s going to be

A while. Yeah.

And that’s cool. I don’t care.

I’m I actually feel a lot better, uh, than I felt at the beginning of the shift earlier I felt Really bad at the beginning of the shift.

Oh my God, I have Ramen. I’m going to eat it, I’m almost home. I’ve been talking the whole way home when I as soon as I got on the interstate, I pulled the phone out. I started talking. But yeah, I mean, I don’t know I just I don’t ever get out And uh, I don’t care, but I am still kind of like a little Skeptical, taking this guitar from Peter. It’s it’s the nicest fucking guitar. I think I had a Fernandez, and I guess if you adjust for inflation, the Fernandez was probably more expensive. I, I can’t look it up right now, but, whatever. Like it was about 900, it had the, uh, 900 Dollars. In 2001. Yeah, I had to like that was I had to yell at this 900 fucking dollars. Okay, the guitar, the Fernandez, they had the sustainer uh like system and the uh tremolo a locking tremolo. And um, oh my God it was the most awesome fucking guitar but I got I pawned it and lost it and pawned for a 100 bucks because I was so depressed about like the band stuff. Everything went to shit. This was like 2002 when I pawned that and I never got it out. I should have stupid. It was that was the nicest guitar I ever had. I had a Schecter that was

Uh, probably a a little bit cheaper, but it was nice. That was probably the best playing guitar I ever had. It was a Shecter 7 string. Yeah. I’ll edit that in but uh, it got stolen by a bunch of crackheads and that’s a long story. The first time I ever had a roommate. Yeah, that was crazy.

But the brake light went off on the car and I have Yeah, I’ve got plenty of gas. Thank God.

Well, I’m home and it’s like really cold and I’m going to get out. And make food and pass out kind of or something, or just hang out and decompress for a little bit. Yay. Haha. Thank you, please.