SATURDAY NIGHT

7:47 PM
Hello. Oh my gosh, it’s Saturday night. So I got back earlier with, um, Delicious food. I have to cook. From Sam’s Club.

Yeah, I did and it’s the chicken shawarma. I was looking.

Everywhere for the fucking gyro meat that I usually get, but it’s They changed it to chicken. It’s the same stuff. But now with chicken, Haha

And I slept until

After 5, it was like 5:30 and I had these crazy dreams.

And dreamt that I met this chick. This is funny uh, at a family reunion. And she was like, 1 of my cousins, like, third or fourth, or fifth cousin. Is there ever is there even like Is fourth cousins. Even a thing? I’ve never heard of people being fourth cousins. I’ve heard of second cousins and third cousins. And fifth cousins.

I don’t know, they added all that, like, twice removed and stuff.

Uh, which that might have always been a thing, I don’t know, but that I never really was clear on what all that meant, you know, I could look it up. I could I could look it up but I won’t. Haha Anyways, uh, we just kind of hit it off at the family reunion and started making out and she was like, oh but I live all the way in Michigan and all this and, you know, in the dream, it was funny. It was like, yeah, I finally found somebody but then when I woke up, I was like, you know, at a family reunion. She was like my fifth cousin. But that didn’t stop my cousins Joanie and Grant from getting married in real life and they have 2 kids together.

Yep.

I just thought it was funny. She was like this cute little blonde lady in her mid-20s, is that

And uh, the same part of that dream, like after we were all standing outside of the house where the family reunion was at and my ex sister-in-law drove up in this big SUV and ran over a bicycle and kept like doing donuts and dragging the bicycle around the yard with her and laughing and being like somebody’s bicycle is, you know?

They Parked their bicycle in a stupid place. And everybody was just watching in horror and she got out and she had just gotten divorced and she had this like Muscled up bald guy with a beard. He was this black, dude, and it was her new boyfriend. And I was like, well, And that was my dream in a nutshell. Yeah. And I woke up about 5:30

And I thought, shut up I’m hungry. I said you should. Yeah, I said shut I’m hungry. Shit, damn motherfuking hungry.

Really, uh, this stupid app. Um, Yeah. I said God damn it shit. I’m hungry! Thanks, that’s what I said. Oh, I didn’t put an exclamation mark. It did it did. Yeah, the app did not me.

I do, I think this, uh, app is ran by like It’s got a mind of its own and it messes with me and I don’t know who else like uses this. And does the same things with it that I do like, who else makes blog posts with this crazy speech to text out. Out application. Yeah.

This crazy speech to text application.

And in other news, I guess Brittany’s been popping up her new uh I guess or her massage therapist account.

Has been popping up like on the people. I may know all the time is she pecked on my other blog last night a bunch and it’s like I don’t know I miss you too but I’m not messaging you, you’re going to have to. She’s just going to have to message me. I don’t know why she can’t. You know, and after still after like 3 years and all that bullshit it’s like, that I would still entertain any kind of anything with her.

Says a lot. About how special she is. To me?

You know.

It’s uh,

Really makes me sad because if I had a time machine there’s other things I would go back and change but you know, that would be 1 of them, I would You know, but there’s Other stuff that I would change before I would change that 1 but

It’s still like I like I wish, you know, I wish it could have been different.

I don’t know, I’ve had to be a lot nicer to myself. Especially after the other day, after that episode was like, man.

You know, it’s just it’s really alienating and all But um,

I can’t expect anybody else to really understand, I have to be nice to myself about it because it is It sucks.

But I’m uh, I’m tired and I kind of don’t care.

Oh, I have clothes in the washing machine? They’re almost done. If they aren’t done. My ex-wife. Yeah she let me borrow $0

$40. Yeah. I don’t know. This fucking app and that’s uh, I was going to get Oh my God. I was, I was at Sam’s Club and I had found the sushi I wanted. And I found the uh, I finally found The fucking, um,

The food I wanted to cook and I’m actually I’m hungry. Yeah, I’m getting hungry. I ate that sushi. It’s the same Sushi. I got yesterday and I’m just really hungry again. When did I eat that?

Yeah, that was about an hour ago, you know, I did.

I hear people. I wonder if they can hear me. I bet they can.

If I fall back asleep, that’s okay but if I don’t I’m probably going to get up here soon and work on music.

That’s just not something I’ve gotten to do so much in the last month. They’ve been running the crap out of us at work. And then, uh, You know, I had to work 2 weekends and then I’ve had the kids and It’s just, I haven’t had time to really sit down and mess with anything. I got that vocal trainer and I have, I’ve had it for 2 weeks and I’ve barely been able to use it.

And it’s okay.

It’s helped a lot.

I was so exhausted this morning. They gave us 90 minutes overtime, like all of a sudden, it was just like pop. There it is. And uh I didn’t get off work till almost 5:30 and so I get home, you know, and I was still kind of wound up because I had pounded a bunch of caffeine which reminds me I have some in the car and I have like an espresso 1 of those double shot espresso drinks.

I’ve got 1 of those in the car. And, uh, I was so wound up when I got off work, that I went to the garage and worked on some stuff and my voice was so horrible. But then it’s like, you know, I’m really tired.

And I think about 30 minutes of that, I just decided to go upstairs and go to sleep. And I did I slept from probably what 7 something?

To 5:30. Yeah. Give or take. I think I woke up once and went back to sleep.

But I haven’t had a chance to rest or do anything, you know, in about a month.

Um,

So, that’s what I’m doing this weekend.

It’s funny though, night shift. It’s like I feel like my weekend’s already mostly over but it’s it’s just getting started. Because I don’t have to go into work, you know, until Monday night but it just feels

It feels weird. It’s like when you wake up at 5:30, you know, I’ve only been up for a couple of hours or so. Night shift. Yeah, it gets my brains all fucked up and then, you know, it’s funny because about the time I get used to it, it’s time to go back to days and that’s what it makes. This a lot different than Honda because Honda was every 2 weeks and you never got used to it. You didn’t, you just got used to the fact that you weren’t ever going to get used to it and it’s okay, it was okay. It was a lot more manageable. The shifts were closer together. You know you didn’t get off work at you know, 5:30 in the morning you know uh 1:00 a.m. was the latest they would run you at Honda unless you wanted to stay over like you had to volunteer for extra stuff to stay over.

Like regular production, didn’t go that far. And it was just a lot more manageable. On day shift, you got off at 2:30. It was 6:00 to 2:30 and night shift was 4 to 12:30. Typically you know they ran you to 1 if it was over time and they were so close together, they would let you volunteer to work over or come in early and I made a lot of money. I’ve talked about that though. I made a whole bunch of money. A lot, lots and lots of money doing that. I would work a double shift on Fridays, is about every other. Well, once a month yeah I would work a double shift,

Oh yeah, about once a month. Um,

Yeah, my biggest paycheck was about 1,600 for 1 week and that was You know, all that went to adventures with kids. That’s what funded our trip to Michigan.

Yeah. Anyways, they’re just it’s this place is so much different. They pay you more though, like an hour and uh you get this giant bonus every 6 months. Which evens out, you know. It’s about the same honestly.

I don’t know. Yeah, I don’t know why. I just went off on a rant about that but night shift is uh yeah, I do actually but night shift It’s, this is my What is last weekend? Was rotation weekend? So this is my first. Yeah, our first weekend on night shift.

So I will probably stay up really late.

I’m really hungry, actually. Yeah, I had to, uh, talk myself out of buying really hard. Actually they had, um,

These cases of Mike’s Hard Lemonade, they were like 12 for, it was like $11 at Sam’s Club, they were on clearance. And uh, Gosh, In a panic. I was like, oh, I want to get drunk. And uh, I know it’s bad because I haven’t been drinking. You know, I quit drinking regularly and

Uh, I thought, what can I do, you know? So I asked my ex wife, if she would, let me borrow money. And she let me borrow a forty dollars, and then I felt guilty about buying any alcohol. So, I didn’t. And I felt like, I like, I won a battle or something and it was It was. Stupid. So I didn’t get anything

I feel like,

Okay, maybe not.

But yeah, I’ve been so fuckin tired. Holy shit.

I’m probably going to wait for a little bit. Like, I’ll let my hair dry. It’s all wet.

And,

Uh, I’ve got to put my clothes in the dryer.

And then I could make that food, but I was thinking like, Because I didn’t get that alcohol and I’m glad I didn’t.

I probably should work out. Yeah, I should do something. I should do some stuff.

Hey, what else can I say? I don’t, I don’t know, you know.

I said, yeah, I just I don’t know. It makes me really sad when I think about Brittany.

I don’t know. I talked about her way too much, even like talking about her a little bit is way too much, but

8:03 PM
There’s a part of me, I think she

Feels bad. I think she feels really bad about what she did, but she still lacks the fucking Something. I say maturity, you know,

Uh, whatever you want to call it.

All she would have to do is message me and just be like, hey,

Instead of stalking my crap and like, you know, it’s like she still does it that she is still, she still doing it after, you know,

It just makes me sad. Yeah, I don’t know what else to say. I don’t

Really want to talk about it. I said, I don’t. Yeah, I did say they picked that up. Okay.

But, holy shit, I am hungry. And I’ve got, uh, I’ve got forty dollars. But I have food. So

Hey, whatever, right? Oh gosh, Sam’s Club’s going to be closed tomorrow because it’s Easter. It’s Easter Sunday.

But then I get paid Wednesday, and that’s great, huh? I only have to make it in 2 days.

At work, with little to no money. I’m going to stretch that 40 bucks out. But you know, Half of that’s got to go to gas.

Thank you, please.