TUESDAY MORNING

3:28 AM
Oh my goodness let’s make a blog post that uh where I’m not talking to Brittany. Ha, I don’t know.

Well, I’m back on day shift.

What in the hell?

Anyways, um, I just I’m just sitting here Uh, out.

In the garage. I have.

Today off, I have the whole day off and

I had a big crazy weekend with the kids. We didn’t spend completely all of my money. But, We had a lot of fun. And it hurts every single day that I’m not with my kids. And that has never stopped.

It never stops.

You know, it’s It’s 1 Thing, to text with them and message with them and or whatever. I uh I use different platforms.

Depending on which kid but like uh Nothing Compares. It’s never the same as being with them in person.

It’s actually made me rethink some stuff. Like what the hell am I really doing all the way up here in Huntsville? I have a really good job and I make decent money. And it’s actually all I’ve been doing since I left. The Honda plant has been trying to get back up there for the last, well up until I was able to come back in 2025 so for like a year and a half. Yeah, but I just did all I could and I finally was able to come back.

And I’ve been really great. About everything. But I really really miss my kids

I have this whole day off and I was just thinking I’ve been up.

Since maybe 11:00 or something, maybe midnight somewhere in there.

Yeah, I’ve been up and I was just thinking because we watched this show called The Umbrella Uh, Academy. Yeah, I think that’s what it was called. Isn’t that what it’s called? We watched most of the, like all through the first 2 seasons and about halfway through the Third And uh, I don’t know. It’s a good show. I heard a lot of reviews about it going to shit. In the third season in the fourth. Forth. Season was just absolute shit. But, uh,

I don’t know. It was it’s so far it’s been entertaining but it totally is getting kind of like old, they’re just like, they’re it’s like time to wrap things up y’all, you know. Um but the first 2 seasons is really cool. I like how the uh the time continuum Uh, people.

Hold on. What are they called? The commission or something. Yeah that’s uh I like how all that is played out and I like the Retro Like 50s aesthetic 40s and 50s this early 60s aesthetic. You know, the post-world War II before the hippie movement aesthetic,

And uh, Everything just seems so classier then, right? Yeah, it did. Yeah. To me.

And that’s 1 thing that a lot of people because I am, you know?

I don’t know, I just I’m not around people with class. Like I used to be like, you know, like my ex-wife is a classy lady. She really is, and You know, I’m just Sand Mountain trash, pretty much compared to like all that. But I do miss. There’s a refinement. And, I have that I just don’t express it physically I’m a total you know slob. But Like people, with like refinements and Their stuff. Their expressions.

People with class.

No, it’s just I don’t encounter it every day anymore, I guess, but I have an appreciation for it.

Because it, you know, it takes holding at least some part or something to higher standard and I like that. I always respect higher standards. Anything that has high standards. That isn’t, you know, just Whatever. I guess anything anybody has to make an effort to maintain or do. I like that.

I was thinking about that. Earlier, you know, but that’s why I like that aesthetic. It’s classy, you know.

There’s a

I mean, you know dumbing things down.

Uh you know, the lowest common denominator. I mean that shit it is you know, it matters but it God, it gets old to someone who appreciates refinement and class. Yep. Gosh, though. Um, hahaha

I slept a lot this weekend. We stayed up all night and slept all day but I stayed up. I woke up at like 8:30 Sunday night and I was up until I got home.

Oh gosh. When did I get home at like 1:30 p.m. or something? Yeah, and then I went to sleep. I did my floors. The chores. Yeah. And then I did the bathroom a Couple of hours ago or something. But uh, I’m in the garage. I’m in the garage. Now, I am in the garage and I’ve got Um, an Alani energy drink. And I’m going to practice guitar.

And that’s what I’m going to do. Until I fall back asleep. And I got to get back on the day shift. Sleeping schedule and that’s going to be fun, because we got a new roommate while I was on nights. And he seems like a really cool guy.

And that’s great.

He seems, you know, like he’s not, he doesn’t.

He seems pretty cool. Yeah. And so um I’ll get to be around, not that I’ll interact so much. But I’ll, at least I’ll be exposed more to my roommates.

Uh, While I’m on day shift.

And that’s kind of 1 thing that’s really helped me a lot that I don’t talk about is having roommates like being around other people. Living with other, people has helped me a lot because when I lived in The Farmhouse, I got very isolated and I just went nuts and I’m still nuts, but I’m better about it.

There’s just 1 thing, you know, I’ve always just kind of kept this like, you know, just

Oh, I’m a really nice person, though. Yeah, I am.

And that’s what has got me through a lot of crap. But I’m not, you know, everybody probably sees that me that way but

So, what?

But yeah, I was looking up. Um,

I was looking at my stuff. And just saw where, you know, Brittany cuz I I haven’t been talking about anything like the same crap over and over and over and it’s like, that’s what I guess kind of an explanation for Uh Brittany just started blowing up my blog pecking on it and I’m just like hey I love you and I do

She’s the biggest crush I ever had.

And it probably doesn’t make a lot of sense to anybody who isn’t me and her,

But,

Gosh. Yeah, you know.

Just spacing out thinking about her.

You know, I talk a lot about Like, I don’t know. I’ve talked a lot about that’s why I haven’t been posting is I got sick of talking about it because You know, I ran away from her and it’s really stupid but I couldn’t help it and that’s the gist of it and she did a bunch of mean crazy shit to me because of it. And that’s it, and I know.  That’s it in a nutshell.

Yeah. Anyways though. Yeah um, I guess I’m going to

Wrap this up and work on music. Because also though uh, some of my favorite stuff favorite songs I’ve ever made.

Um, are about her. And I hope she has a wonderful great life. Whether I’m in it. You know, physically or not, it’s fine.

Thank you, please.