SUNDAY NIGHT!!

8:36 PM
Hello. let me hook up my stuff. I’m going to do music.

So hopefully it, uh

Motherfucker.

I don’t know what.

On the

Job.

In the class.

Sorry, it’s picking up uh, Madame blavatsky overdrive. Haha on the uh, from my stuff.

I’m just really glad to be home. I miss my kids, though. It kills me every time I take them back. And that I’m like 2 hours away from them. And it’s a 4 Hour round trip and it’s like Jesus Christ. Am I not tired enough?

But, uh, yeah, I had a whole week off and I have not rested, not 1 bit. I mean, I’ve slept, you know, and stuff I napped around but the kids always wake me up. You know about something, Every 2 or 3 hours anyways, it’s kind of funny but uh I had a very productive week off from my regular job I guess I can’t really complain.

Oh, I can’t do this. I can’t do 2 things at once.

Okay, yeah, yeah, I can’t. Um,

I can’t listen to music and make a blog post at the same time. Isn’t that silly? And anyways.

But I’m in my old room and I’m happy about that. And the kids had a lot of fun and my daughter decorated my room. And she did a great job. I just got to clean everything up where they left it a mess, you know.

I bought a coffee maker, a little Keurig. Coffee maker for me. Oh, it’s the kind I always get from Walmart. I bought. This is the third 1. I bought uh, I bought 1 when I’m first moved into The Farmhouse and it was 19 dollars. And I think, you know, almost 20, I guess it was like 19 something, it was $20, plus tax. You know, including tax haha and um, this Time it was $24

What else?

Bought something else. Oh, I bought this light thing and it was for my daughter, but she’s like, this is really cool, it suits this room. You just keep it in here. And so, I did and I bought, uh,

I guess technically this mini fridge from my the old former roommate I guess. Now she is

And then I’ll probably pay her for that next week. At least some of it. She said I could pay her in installments. I did. I bitched a lot about it the other day in a post, but it’s like, whatever. You know, it’s actually pretty nice to have. I got a little croissant

Light. Yeah, that’s funny. And uh,

I’m pretty happy. I got to put the stuff up, but I’m probably going to make this post and then just lay here and space out listening to music. And if I fall asleep, that’s fine.

Gosh, that girl’s been in my brains like all week and I just can’t bring myself To send her a friend request. Yeah, I just can’t do it but I really, really do want a girlfriend. I’m like, I feel like I’m ready even though I have no confidence in my looks right now. I feel like I look like a fucking criminal or something with a shitty fucking hair. It’s so stupid. I feel so stupid. But then some memories popped up from the last time I shaved my head 5 years ago on Google photos and it’s the same. It looks the same as it did. Then, you know, I didn’t give a shit for some reason then I kind of did. Yeah. And then it grows out about 2 months and it looks fine.

And then it gets too long and it looks like shit. There’s like a couple of Things in there. I don’t know. It’s just

Um, whatever.

My life is so stupid. It’s not awful or anything though but I did get really depressed earlier and after I dropped the kids off, I was like, dang, I’m sad. I miss them so much.

It’s really.

That’s what makes me the saddest.

Because it’s all I really care about. That’s what? You know. I’m just, I know it’s been 8 years since the divorce but that’s all I cared about was like my family and shit and then I just I don’t know. And it was over.

It’s uh, obviously a long story, right? But

I’m still really.

I don’t really know. It’s like I’m better in a lot of ways.

Um, but sometimes I really really just wonder why the hell I’m still here. I mean it gets that bad. Sometimes. It does. It’s like, you know,

And my job. It’s really hard. But it pays. Well, well enough, I guess. Yeah.

I guess I get really lonely.

That sucks.

Feel like I had more stuff to say like like um,

Meaningful but I’m just tired.

Yeah.

Guess, uh,

I guess I’m going to wrap this up then. Yep. And Fucking, if I fall asleep, maybe, I’ll wake up at a decent time so I can do my chores and

Uh, Go right back to sleep or something, right?

Yeah. Oh gosh. Oh, that’s what it was. I went walking yesterday morning. I forgot to mention that in yesterday’s post. And I got uh, I stumbled upon a garage sale and I got this cheap little tablet. I’m going to use it for drawing and everything. I got a whole bunch of art supplies at Walmart. Last night I spent all my money.

I had like plenty of money when I had got paid Wednesday and plus doing what I did with house remodeling. And then I just spent all of it. I got a rug, I got a weight bench. Yeah, that’s the other stuff I bought. Haha. I was like, I know, I bought something besides that coffee maker.

And the light, you know? Yeah, the weight bench that was like a hundred and something dollars.

How I spent?

I spent $80 something dollars at Publix, uh,

Yesterday too the kids. Love this bread, they have there and we got a pizza and we got like A lot of other stuff. I don’t really even know what the hell did we even get that it costs that much.

Sushi. And chicken. And I got a chicken and I got some kind of pasta salad. And uh, Pizza.

And a case of Cokes. Cookies

Carrot cake.

And that bread it wasn’t that much stuff. Yeah. But it was uh, Well no, it was like.

85 dollars or something. It was a lot of fucking money.

Anyways, that’s it though. I’m just I’ll make a post later about stuff. I’m excited. Though, I’m just uh I think I’m more tired than I am anything.

Thank you, please.