TUESDAY MORNING

7:37 AM
Oh gosh. Hello. Yeah, I am in my room. I’m laying in the bed.

I got home at like 4:30. And then I went, uh, I worked out. Yeah, I did. And, I walked for about 30 minutes.

Give or take and, uh, Then I went to Walmart. Yeah, I had to stay up and go to Walmart. So I was like, why not do a bunch of crap? And it did, and I wanted to do music, but I’m I’m really tired. Now, I just ate a big sandwich.

And 2 fig bars.

And I’m going to just,

Make a blog post because my friend, Rebecca, who is my favorite lady friend? Oh, I don’t know. It’s funny because like, oh I have had some really graphic dreams about her but like that was like 2 years ago and uh, but she’s really awesome and

Um,

Like, I’ve never met her in person. She’s German. She’s from Germany. She lives in Germany. So, you know, I don’t know. I don’t like just fall in love with chicks online or anything, these days but I would love to have a band with her. Yeah, and uh, you know, I don’t really care about the whole romantic thing with her, anyways, cuz she’s way more awesome as a friend. But she has lyme disease. She got bit by tick hiking on the French border. I don’t know exactly all exactly this whole story but apparently she’s having a really hard time and she couldn’t get her meds like she had. And, uh,

She’s like, deteriorating really fast and it scared me because she sent me a bunch of crazy stuff. All right, looked crazy. She sent me some crazy stuff. Um,

Last night while I was at work. Uh, somebody she had an accident or something and She like, like she had fallen and scraped her butt and her legs. She was showing me these pictures and 1 of her legs was swollen up. And then, um,

She? Uh, messaged me earlier. I was like, you know what happened with a bunch of crying face emojis. Uh, because I really, really care about Rebecca. She’s my best friend. That’s a lady. And, uh, I mean, she’s 1 of my best friends period. You know, she’s my best lady friend and uh, Crap. I’m trying to think cuz it messed me up so bad cuz she just sent me all this stuff. So it’s like, then she’s started talking all this crazy shit. About how, uh, like she gave me her mom’s address and her phone number her mom’s phone number and her brother, her brother’s mentally disabled. But he’s got a phone, I guess so people that take care of him can like do stuff or something. And she was like, you know, if I might not be on here again for a while and you know if she’s she says anything doesn’t sound like herself. Just contact her mom and all this shit. Freaked me out really bad. Because, you know, I’ve been friends with Rebecca for a while. And uh you know for a few years and she’s just so awesome and she speaks like 7 or 8 languages, she plays bass and she’s really good.

And uh, I don’t know. It’s just it’s like dang. You know.

She’s just 1 of my absolute favorite people on planet Earth. And uh,

You know, I don’t know what to do about that because I talk to her all the time, like about everything.

You know, and I send her songs when I record a song, She’s the first person I’ll send it to. It’s like, what do you think of this crap, you know, and She’s uh, she’s just just the most awesome person ever. And it’s really messing with me right now because I’m like, I don’t know. I don’t understand anything She just told me but it freaked me out. So uh, and she hasn’t replied to my last message and it makes me really really sad. Because she just want  her to be okay, you know, she’s 1 of my very best friends. So anyways, Yeah, I don’t know.

What else to say about that? So I’m still kind of reeling from that you know, being freaked out by Rebecca but I gosh, I hope. She’s okay. You know, it’s just really. Really scary to me and I’m really worried about her.

Anyways though, um Yeah, that it’s uh sucks.

Gosh.

But in other news, um, that chick has been in my fucking brains and it’s driving me crazy a little bit.

I don’t know.

I said, yeah, I know it’s like only me. Though, you know.

I was in Walmart earlier, and I was, uh,

I don’t know. She’s just like it just got really  crazy. I could feel her energetically, and sometimes it is pretty intense. It’s, it’s worse than like Brittany. It’s weird and I don’t really know what any of that means. That’s what I’m saying. Like, I think she put a spell on me. On 1 hand. Like she really didn’t have to on another hand, though. It got my attention but I don’t know what to do about it. It’s really stupid. So that’s like those things, you know I’m kind of dealing with that right now. It’s not bad except Rebecca, that’s really bad. I don’t know.

I just hope she’s okay because she was like, you know, contact, my mom sometime next year. And I’m like, what? Why next year, you know? And then she explained to me like some weird stuff, I don’t know.

1 of my roommates is up and I feel like I don’t I don’t want them to hear me talking about. Crazy stuff like chicks in my brain. Haha

Yeah, but still I don’t know. That’s my reality, it’s not I don’t get a normal reality, like most people do.

Most people who are still like walking around among other people and not in the mental institution somewhere. Yeah, I mean, it’s like sometimes I’m just like, dang, I’m really fucking crazy.

But it’s really not, it’s it’s normal for me, it’s 1 reason why I’m, like, you know, I’m the most normal person in the whole universe and uh,

You know.

Some people would be like, what is normal, right? But uh not not me. Yeah. Gosh without just going off on a rant about that.

But I’m not the only person who has like crazy shit, you know, stuff like that. Go on with them. I have a cousin who got struck by lightning twice, He has like, 180 something on Q2 before that happened. I don’t know. He’s A, it’s a graphics design artist. Now, and It’s part of, um,

I don’t know if he’s still fences and does all that stuff. I don’t know. He’s badass guy but you know and then like Just weird stuff that my mom’s side of the family. Oh,

Anyways, y’all, I don’t know.

Um,

I guess I was just wanting to vent about my friend Rebecca and that chick in my brains. It’s like

Gosh, darn it. So

But um, she lives around here somewhere and

You know, I, I guess I just Have to cross paths with her. I think I’ve said that somewhere. We will have to run in each other out. Out in. Huntsville somewhere, because I’m not.

Like contacting her. I’m not I just I don’t know, everything’s just just so weird. I feel so stupid even talking about it. Hahaha Um, I guess that’s it though. Yeah, thank you.

Please.