6:00 PM
Hello. I am. I am just.
I’m just home. I’m laying here at 8. Uh, I ate Yeah, that’s right. Um,
Turkey, I wrapped some like, it was like, the spring garden mix. I don’t know what? All the fucks in it. Some kinds of lettuce. And spinach and some other crap and I rolled that up with some cheese. And 2 pieces of turkey. And that is, uh, that was my supper. And now I’m just laying here because I’m really tired and I did I fucked up this weekend by drinking a bunch. I guess I was uh I guess it was like
I said, I don’t know what got into me, but I guess it was Rock and Roll. Hahaha. I was such a fucking, idiot. But,
I’m tired right now and I had a really long stupid day.
And that guy that I don’t get along with is like he’s just the stupidest fucking dude ever. And it’s weird because it it’s starting to stress me out a little bit, but he stares at me all the time. Like he’s trying to antagonize me or something and He’ll do it or some shit and I’ll fucking like, put something if I’ll be on a process ahead of his And I’ll do something to like mess up his process. Like I’ll put a bolt in like where he puts a part or something and he’ll stop and then he’ll start doing it again and I’ll do something else and he’ll stop. And he finally stopped doing it towards the end of the shift and I’m just like, you know, I feel like I’ve been way too nice about this guy, you know, but I don’t know what to do about it. I really don’t because he’s uh he’s just really really stupid. I hate to say that He also might be gay for me.
And I think it matters a lot more to him than it does to me, because I have such a short, attention span at work and I just forget everything anyway, so it’s like, oh yeah, he was staring at me 10 minutes ago, you know, it’s like, I just don’t care, you know, I’m just there to work and get my fucking paycheck and go home, you know, like I don’t give a shit about Co-worker crap. And, uh, I’m also like 20 years older than most of the people. I’ll work with like 10 at least. Like I’m, I’m like 15 to 20 years older than almost everybody.
You know, I think, uh, at the very least, I’m like ten years older than most of them. There’s a few people around my age and there’s a couple of people that are older than me, but You know, I’m like I’m probably like the third or fourth oldest person on my line for real. And I don’t think anybody realizes that it’s like like even the dude, the stupid ass guy that I just mentioned.
You know, if I was to rank, I, I did that 1 day actually. I think I ranked all the shitty co-workers, the top 10. And, you know, like he barely, he would barely even make the top 10. I think I listed him at number 9, once off the top of my head but I would have to just sit down and think About it like because the the first 5 were really bad, you know, like the pedophile guy from the Honda plant and uh This little shit that um who actually that guy that I worked with. Now, reminds me of This little shit that I did house remodeling with the last year that I did house remodeling full-time in 2021, Uh, You know, he just he was this little bitty asshole and I almost threw him off a fucking roof because he wouldn’t stop being a turd like I don’t know what it is about me and these little Peckerwood fucking guys. I don’t understand. Because I’m just I just keep to myself, I’m not mean, you know, I’m actually super nice to everybody for the most part. And maybe that’s what it is. They think I’m just some big fucking idiot that they can mess with. And it’s like, well no, I’m I don’t really know how to process that though because they’re just such dumb little shits. It would be like kicking a puppy. You know what I mean? Like, that’s kind of part of it too. It’s like, well, you know, I don’t know what to do.
Stupid. Yeah, it’s really stupid but um,
Yeah, enough about that, though. What do I? I thought about working out.
I’m tired. I ate already so I could just fall asleep. It doesn’t matter.
Yeah, I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I’m gonna lay here for a little bit, though. I usually don’t. Start doing anything until about 6:30. That’s kind of how it’s been the last. Uh, like last week. I was like, I’m just going to lay here. And until uh can let my body I can. Yeah, my body needs to rest a little bit. But I really am I’m getting super burned out on this job but You know, I don’t know what the fuck else I can do that wbere Even I make even comparable if I could find somewhere making like twenty 5 dollars an hour or something or like, you know, even a dollar or 2 less, but most all the other places around here they don’t start out. You know, I would be making 19 or twenty dollars an hour. I made $19 an hour at Target, you know, and that didn’t go up any Even when they hired me on full-time, It was, uh, it was kind of stupid and, you know, I was only making I was only bringing home like hundred dollars a week.
$100 a week, 500. Yeah, dollars a week, 500 dollars a week and uh, you know that I’m making a whole lot more than that now. And actually
You know, I’m, I’m not going to give that up just because of some stupid ass co-worker but uh, You know, it’s just it’s like he’s the guy that got in my face. I guess that’s been what about a month ago or something? Yeah, and it’s just like, okay, well, you know then he just keeps doing it and it’s like this guy is a fucking idiot. But I don’t know how stupid, but I don’t know how far his stupidity goes, you know?
So, it’s just, uh, it’s almost it is, it’s like he’s antagonizing me to try to get me to do something, to get end up getting fired, you know, like, just grabbing him and, and throwing him in throwing him in front of a fucking Tugger, or something. Like I’m not going to do that. But part of me feels like maybe he deserves it, but I’m not going to do it. I’m not going to do anything like, uh, and uh, eventually you know, it’ll probably just go away but it’s like, gosh, what a little shit. And you know, that’s probably the highlight of his whole, you know, he’s just like, yeah, I can Stare at the you know the big crazy Guy it’s like well emphasis on crazy you know like you you really Shouldn’t do that. But then it’s like I said, you know, he’ll do it until I start like messing with his process or something and then he’ll stop.
And uh, it’s really dumb but it stresses me out because it’s like, you know, how stupid is this guy? Well, I mean pretty fucking stupid. Yeah, enough about that. I said gosh. Yeah I’m just venting I get I reckon.
I left all my music and stuff, uh, equipment, my guitar, and my amp, and all that, and the garage and totally forgot, that’s how drunk I got yesterday. In the middle of the day too uh, shit. Yeah. So, I guess I’m still kind of reeling from that. I, you know, I’m I was hung over a little feeling. I had the thing about that is, uh, you know, my anxiety. I get really bad anxiety after drinking like that. And I just, it’s just So many reasons why I stopped drinking and I don’t know what got into me over the weekend.
Well, I already said that though, right? Yeah. Um, shit, I don’t know. I am mostly just keeping up my post streak. I’m gonna Wrap this up because I don’t want to edit.
I don’t want to edit any more than this. Haha. Yay!
Thank you, please.
