7:31 AM
Well.
Yep, I am.
Uh, I did a bunch of stuff after work. I got off work at like I think I clocked out at
Yeah, 11 minutes after 4:00 and am yes. I went to the gym.
And I worked out for about 30 minutes, doing the bench press, and The dumbbells.
And I got home and I ate and I made that birthday card for my coworker that I totally forgot to make over the weekend. And did not give to her on her birthday yesterday. Like a piece of shit and she let me have it too. And I felt like the worst person in the universe. So I made her a card. I got it, it’s huge. And it’s dogs and words and crayons.
Haha.
And uh, smiley faces.
I’m completely insane. My artwork is so insane, and I’m really out of practice, kind of, but I’m not, but it’s like, I don’t hardly ever draw anymore, do like art.
Visual art.
Um, I did a lot though. After the divorce
Like the first year or so after the divorce I did so much art.
And then I did Art. I had a creative burst in 2021. I did a lot and I really haven’t done much since then. It was 5 years ago but every now and then I’ll pick some stuff up and do something.
I’ve got paints. And I do the chickens on, you know, my chicken graffiti but Yeah, gosh, I am just really tired. But what did me in was uh, walking around the block? I walked actually around like 2 blocks. Yeah. And I was like, dang, I shouldn’t have went this far.
About halfway into that I realized I fucked up.
But whatever and I’m just making a post Brittany blew my fucking both of my blogs up yesterday and I’m like dang
And, uh, you know, I do, I wish that like
We could just like talk or something or see each other or, I don’t know, like 1 step at a time, right? I mean, I just wish it was different with her because
It’s just really crazy. I don’t really know how to say it. It’s like I just wish it was different. I wish we were Like,
I wish it could have been different.
I think uh, you know, I guess that’s her with a Chinese VPN. I don’t know.
Either that or some Chinese person is reading really specific Brittany posts. I mean, it’s just like, I don’t know. You know, what am I making up in my head, and what is reality? That’s why she drove me. So fucking crazy. But uh yeah, I mean if if I would have
Um, if she would have, came at me a little less crazy or if I would have been a little more Brave, I don’t know. I think I said that in 1 of the posts that got read earlier this morning, It’s just, it just sucks. Because I did, I cried about Brittany almost as much as I cried over my ex-wife, it was really, really bad. And
I mean.
I just I haven’t, you know, It’s been 3 years over 3 years and just haven’t I’ve never liked anybody that much. Ever.
It’s you know, I feel so silly talking about it and that it’s still, it’s just like, you know, why the hell aren’t we together? Like, why does she still mess with my shit? You know, like Gosh, what the fuck date of birth?
Universe. I said, what the
The hell. Yeah. What the heck?
Ha, ha ha ha. I’m just gonna wrap this up and pass out. Thank you, please.
