THURSDAYYY

7:23 AM
Oh my gosh. What am I doing? Oh, I’m coming back home from Publix.

That’s right. I went home. Then back out. And traffic is really stupid.

Traffic is so stupid right now. It’s so weird. But uh, yeah, I got home.

At uh, fuck like almost 5.

And I just laid down, and I. Kind of dozed off. And then I made myself get up about 6:45 and get to Publix when they opened at 7. I’m trying to figure out, I think I need to I need to get in this other lane.

Oh, I’m over here on Winchester. Uh, road, but it’s it’s Sutton road I think

That goes from 72 to Winchester. Anyways that’s where I’m at right now and it’s just stupid fucking traffic and it’s 1 of those things where it’s traffic from 1 direction is insane and then traffic from you know the other direction is practically non-existent

People are trying to get around me and I’m turning left up here so and they get mad. I’m in the other lane.

You know I’m in the the left lane and people are like but I’m turning so it’s like, yeah, I don’t know. I had a stupid night at work, but it wasn’t really that bad. It’s just the end was crappy. It’s just that little coworker dude. Uh he’s such a shit, he’s just such a wannabe little.

Wrapper asshole and he sucks.

I’ve been really trying hard to pull myself out of this fucking depression. Awful.

I have been depressed.

Pretty bad since uh, like February. Yeah. It’s it’s gotten better and then it’ll get worse and it’ll get better and then it’ll get worse. And then it’ll get better.

And maybe it’s getting better now. I don’t know, it gets old all that gets old.

Well there’s nothing else really new. Uh I got to figure out I think I know what I’m going to do this weekend but my roommate is having a

Hello.

Okay. She’s having a big sexy themed party. Uh, but it’s not a sex party. Yeah, and I’ll have to post the descriptions.

I guess that’s what’s going on at the house. I live in this weekend and I didn’t really want to be there, but the kids all have they have. Well, my daughter has plans, I can’t do something like I can I can’t do like a weekend thing with just 1. I have to include both of them on that I don’t know. That’s just kind of how it works.

Oh, but I’m going to eat. I’ve got uh,

Meals. I got the.

Jalepeno. Wait, I got the pepperjack stuffed. Fucking chicken breast with the Mexican street corn and I got a salmon With a fucking something stuffed. And some vegetables, and I’m probably going to eat

The um,

My brains. I know this is I’m usually like just dead to the world of asleep right now. I’ve been really really sad though. Uh, obviously if you’ve read any of my posts, the 3 people who do like, who have read the, you know, my posts for the last couple of weeks. I’m sorry but yeah, it got so bad actually. I think it was the night before last They uh, pulled me aside and had a mandoline check.

Uh, mandoli check. Mendomi check. Yeah, I’ll have to edit that in uh, because I was so visibly, sad. And depressed and it’s been like that for a while. I just got so sad, I got so sad. And I do a lot of it is uh, wish I had a girlfriend.

I want a girlfriend so bad, it’s killing me. I know I wonder who she’s going to be?

I wonder if she’ll be at the sexy party. Ha ha, I don’t know. But um,

Shit, this is going to give me something to edit, while I’m waiting for my chicken. To cook it’s going to take about 20 minutes. 25 minutes or something. Oh, I’m almost home.

I’m almost home. Thank you.

I missed my kids. But I’ve got PTO and stuff for next week and the next, and the next, um, to

To go do stuff with them. And then, ⁷7 next month should be a pretty good month for paychecks. Yeah, I got to get some stuff. Got to do some maintenance on the car.

And yes, and I’m sorry.

I have to get studio monitors. And I have to finish the concept album and I have to finish the co-worker album and my regular album.

And hopefully not snap and kill that dude, at work. I can’t do that. But, I think. Yeah, last night was, uh, the closest I ever came to Grabbing him and throwing him into the heater Barnes. Hahaha I don’t know. I think that’s almost like, it’s, he’s trying to it’s like, dude.

It’s really stupid. He’s really stupid. He was, uh, staring me down 1 day and and I just, I didn’t even know how to react to that. He tries to act all like hard and tough, and I don’t think he realizes that I’m not.

A serious person when it comes to stuff like that. I don’t know where it comes from, like cuz I know a lot of other little dudes like him and they don’t act like that. It’s just Not worth talking about anymore. Yeah. Hahaha. Haha.

Thank you. Please.