Tuesday! Morning

4:44 AM
Hey. Oh my goodness. I’m driving to work. Yep, I got around a little later.

It’s just going to be 1 of those weeks until I get done with this like until I get. Yeah. What?

Uh, through it. Because I’m broke like technically what? I’m not but I am. Huh? Yeah.

But it’s Tuesday and it’s not Monday and that’s great. Ha ha ha.

Oh gosh though. Yeah, I shaved my head and um my kids have just been giving me a hard time about it. My daughter. Especially And everybody at work. Like I don’t know. You can tell

Some women get really possessive of me like even if it’s just in their heads. And a lot of them, the ones that do really like when I have a beard, and when I shave that off, they get weird.

And uh, it’s kind of funny, there’s a There’s a couple of them at work that are just like, you know, and they just stare at me, but I look pretty good without like with a shaved head. It’s

Cuz some chicks, it makes them like me even more. It’s funny, like, women’s tastes and stuff is, uh, I don’t understand it. I don’t understand women. That’s something, I’m not even going to pretend.

To anything, yeah. Like I just do not understand women, and I’m okay with that. I guess, I mean

Am I though? I’m like, what have I tried to? I don’t know.

Yeah, they drive they drive me pretty fucking crazy.

Uh, I guess it’s

That’s the way it is.

I don’t know the uh, the other 2 roommates. Um, they haven’t done all of their chores. 1 of them hasn’t done any of his chores and The boss lady roommate’s just been. Oh gosh. She’s not happy about that at all and it’s kind of funny what? Uh, Stuff she says sometimes because she’s so like inconsistent. And uh,

That’s the only thing that really that will really like That she cares about if you do it or not. All the chores. It’s like you got to do your chores though. Like at least I don’t know, make an effort or something. But I think the uh, 1 of the, the guys that hasn’t done any of the chores, I think he has some kind of mental disability.

Just from like talking to him the little bit I have and hearing him. Interact with the roommate who took me back and forth to work.

Because he’s done like a bunch of stuff for her, she’s made him do all kind of stuff. I can, I can hear him outside of my room, a lot of the times. And I’m just like, dang, that guy’s got like That guy has some kind of like mental thing. I don’t know, and I don’t know the other guy at all. I haven’t even met him yet.

I can’t remember either 1 of their names. Isn’t that funny? Yeah. Um, and then yesterday after work, they had a team leader orientation and I checked that out, I don’t know if I’m team lead material, but

It’s worth a look. Anyways,

I didn’t see my pal Trevor in there. Yeah. Uh I was like I was going to sit by him. I’m going to tell I’m going to See why it he might have been in there but he I didn’t see him, you know, the cafeteria is not that big. Yeah, you can’t really hide from, you know anybody, even though I tried there, wasn’t anybody? I saw 1 of the co-worker girls though, I saw her leaving as I was in the gym. I was like, dang man. You know.

Uh but I have no idea why she like I just have no idea. She might have been like I want to check this out. This is stupid and she left. It was uh,

It was like 6:00 p.m. you know, so like everybody we did a 90 minutes overtime and Uh, nobody probably wanted to fucking Stay after that. I think that’s a lot of it, too. I was so tired.

When I got home, I made a blog post.

I made that blog post and I read it read through it like once. And then I passed the hell out.

I don’t know, I’m trying to make like posts.

Regularly again.

Oh, I guess I have, that’s a big thing too. I’ve been struggling a lot with like I, I don’t know what you would call it. Exactly. Existential fucking.

Stuff.

But it’s like, it’s sad, but then I’ll snap out of it and I’ll be fine. Like, you know, I’ll just feel so pointless. And then, uh, that goes away. Like like I have to get as sad as I can possibly get until I reach the bottom, the end of the sadness. And then I go back up And sometimes, that’s You know, it happens. It’s infrequent how it happens. And that’s what I’ve been dealing with a lot, the last couple of months, like I just You know, when I’ll start to make a blog post, I’ll end up talking about how much I want to die and all this shit and how stupid and pointless I feel and how you know, like why can’t I just Have to be over with. And I don’t feel like that right now. I feel normal right now and that’s great!

I know this, I’ve lost a lot of regular people reading my blog. I think 1 person reads it from Gmail still but like all the regular people cuz I used to get 5 or 6 You know, likes on any article. And now I don’t get any It’s like yeah, I ran everybody off. You know, it’s 1 Guy used to like every fucking article I posted and he fucking Like he unfollowed me. Yeah. Yeah. Which I mean. You know, but it it got that bad. I think there’s a lot of posts that I made, uh, drafts.

And a lot of posts that I deleted. In the last couple of months. So I just, I finally just quit making regular posts. For a while. And you know, I don’t know. I guess I’m trying to put some distance behind all the, uh, the Brittany posts I made over the last couple of weeks. Because it is, it’s Ridiculous. And I know that it all goes to her fucking head. And like, that’s all it is. It’s not like it’s not that deep or anything. You know. That’s 1 reason why I’m kind of just like, all right, well I’m tired of it now. And maybe she is too. I don’t know but she gets into my brains and it’s

She never goes away. I don’t I don’t know.

I don’t know why she can’t just be like, hey, like a person at me.

But that’s that’s another thing about like what I mean by like I don’t understand women. Yeah.

That don’t.

Something in her ego. Yeah. Uh isn’t

You know, I’m just not a real person to her or something, I don’t really understand it.

I don’t know how she sees me, really? Uh,

Biggest crush I ever had though. That’s what she was to me. And it’s not any more complicated than that. Anyways, gosh. And that’s another reason too, because I just start talking about this crap.

Um, and I haven’t really had a lot of new stuff, you know, going on. Um, I’ve got, uh,

I’m really disappointed about the gym. Fucking the bench, press machine being fucked up because that’s 1 of the things I use. So my neck and shoulder doesn’t hurt.

Yeah.

I should have boiled some eggs.

That would go pretty good with the little Ramen cup I have right now but that’s it’s just going to have to do. I might get a beef stick. From the snack machine or something.

But,

Yep.

I just got to get through this week.

Thank you, please.