SATURDAY NIGHT

7:00 PM
I think it’s going to make posts on this 1. I guess, I don’t know. Yep.

It’s Saturday. I woke up this morning.

I think it was about 7:30 and I finally got around and got out. Maybe 9 a.m.? Went walking around the neighborhood to the Dollar. General, I hadn’t eaten anything. And I was really.

Just punishing myself, I guess. Haha I don’t know. Hello. Yeah. And uh the apps. I don’t know. I guess the Wi-Fi up here kind of sucks. It does the Wi-Fi sucks. Upstairs.

Yeah. Um,

But anyways, I went to the Dollar, General, I hadn’t eaten anything since uh, what did I eat yesterday, I ate

A little thing of ramen was it did I eat a hot dog? I ate my last hot dog, okay? I think that’s what I did. I can’t remember what I ate. I just came home and I was like, blah and I passed out.

It was it was the last hot dog. And then later, I ate 2, boiled eggs and that’s all I had to eat and uh, I woke up feeling so puny

And walked to the Dollar General where I got a quart of oil for my car and a Lunchables. To eat on the way back. I still forgot to get fucking son allergy medication. I almost said Sinus medication, but I don’t, I guess. I don’t really need it though, huh?

I thought about going walking again.

It’s uh, You know, it’s it was hot when I went it was starting to get really hot. I think it was close to 11 a.m. when I got back home. I don’t remember. I was like, it was it was really hard. But I’m glad I did it. I laid here and I felt like crap and I was really dehydrated too, but I got me a gallon of water. I went to Walmart earlier and I got more hot dogs. And a gallon of water and some potato salad. I also got a half a gallon of milk and some pimento cheese and some more reesei cup Oreos.

Yeah, however you want to spell that

They’ve changed the carrot cakes at Walmart which I mean, yeah, the newer ones they kind of suck and they’re 3 dollars. More than the old ones which were Not as good as you would get at, Publix. But, uh, They were pretty fucking good though. Yeah, a carrot cake is my favorite cake. I had a dream after I came uh home from walking, I fell asleep. And I didn’t wake up till about 4:30 and I dreamt that I went to Georgia and the store that only had like Special cakes.

That you couldn’t get in Alabama and I got 1 of their carrot cakes and it was $40 and I was trying to like Not spend all my money, but I spent a lot of it anyways and You know how dreams are, you know, they’re just

Things feel a lot more intense and important than you know they are but it was like it was a big deal. Because I couldn’t find like the special carrot cakes anywhere and I had, I found them in Georgia, and my cousin was with me and my cousin Shawn, and my mom was still alive.

And every now and then, I’ll see a lady that looks like my mom. And it bothers me like it upsets, it makes me cry. Yeah. And that happened earlier.

Uh, when I was at the Circle K um paying for my items. I got. A, I got a 32 oz Coke. And fountain drink. Yeah. And was that was the 32 oz. No, it was like the 48 oz or something. It was it was the biggest 1, it was the extra large, I don’t know what the fuck it is.

I got a racetrack Cup right here that’s comparable in size, but it doesn’t have the Oz. It just says large.

All right, maybe I’ll look that up or something before I post this and type it in.

Yeah, it’s more than 32 oz, though. I think it’s 40. (ITS 42OZ)

And I forgot to put in my rewards number. But yeah, there was this chick who like she had the hair and all but like Her mannerisms were like my mom’s and it made me. Cry and uh, I guess it was back in last year sometime. I was at Walmart and there was a lady with really long white hair and she was wearing a mask like a, you know, like a surgical You know, just a face mask. Yeah. Uh like, you know, people wear and my mom always wore those out in public.

And, uh, for half a second, I thought it was my mom. I was like transported, I had like a brain malfunction. It was like, I was in, you know, because I always used to go to the grocery store with her at Foodland in downtown Albertville and she would just be, you know, picking through the produce section, and that’s what that woman was doing. And it just, I mean, for a second, like, I was transported back to like, 20, 22 or something. And Yeah, maybe that that was that made me so upset though, that I like I cried the whole way home. It’s really. A crazy. How that is? Yep. But I do. I really miss my mom sometimes.

It’s uh,

Something, I don’t think I’ll ever get over either. It’s I still I’ll never feel like my mom deserves, you know like she always she deserved better and my mom, deserved a whole lot better.

Than the life she got, you know.

Anyways, now I’m making myself a cry again.

Yeah, I know. Like, my last post I talked all about all that crap, but it’s still like, my mom was still a really great person and

To me. Anyways, you know she was Well. You know, I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Yeah, I was just thinking Oh, I’m I’m not. Yeah, anyways. What the hell? My other phone just went off. Where is it?

Oh, that was some kind of notification.

Where is that? Damn jug of the water? There it is.

Now, hello.

Yeah. After this food, settles a little bit. I probably need to work out. I could walk.

Down to Oakwood, probably and back. Yeah, I don’t really, I don’t like walking when it’s too dark or too late

Um, I don’t know. I see people walking out all hours of the fucking night. I’ll be outside. Like

Going to the trash can or going to the garage or something at 2 or 3 a.m. and somebody will walk by the house with their dog. Yeah. I mean, I guess that’s just the suburbs.

Oh shit. What am I? What am I going to do tonight? I don’t know. I’m not really feeling like, That creative. I feel like I need to rest.

Some more I might pick around on guitar here in a minute.

But I don’t really feel like working on a song. I feel like, maybe just practicing and See where that goes. Yeah that’s what I’m going to do tonight. I’m just going to Pedal around. I might go out to the garage later and practice some singing.

I don’t really have anything profound or

Funny or anything to talk about other than I don’t even know what the hell. I just was talking about besides of my mom and the grocery store.

I can’t remember things. I’ll be at work and uh, We have, like, Steps in our processes. And sometimes when the line stops I’ll do some other steps like uh early like put stickers on or

I would normally.

That I would normally do uh, after other things in the process, when the line is running.

And I’ll do those. I’ll do those steps and the line will start going. And then I’ll put like something else in and then turn to go do that. And realize I already look, I just did it like 20 seconds ago and forgot. That’s uh I call that factory brain. It’s just because I space out all the time. Not everybody is like that.

But I am so ready. Like last week I was just so tired of it, all I unfollowed, the Facebook group, I’m in and everything. I’m just so sick of work and everybody at work right now. It’s uh, Probably sounds kind of like Probably sounds like I’m kind of being an asshole and I am. Yeah, I’m just I just had it you know, had enough. And I was walking back from the Dollar General and like the 1 guy that I don’t like, on my line drove past me on Oakwood and he drives a fucking Tesla. And he drove past me and I was like there’s that dude and it’s like, you know, I’m off work for 9 days. I don’t want to think about anybody. I work with and I don’t want to even see anything pop up. On Facebook or Instagram related to my job, for 9 fucking days. It’s a great job. It’s just You know, sometimes it gets to be a little too much and I think Um,

Yeah, it’s good. That we get 9 days off twice a year. Yeah.

It just sucks that my daughter has band camp starting this week or I would get them like I would have they would be here, you know, we would

Would be.

I don’t know. I’d figure something out. I was thinking, oh, well, no, because I’m fucking broke. But, uh, I was, they would be here, Wednesday, or Thursday, or something. You know, instead of Friday night,

Which is when I’m planning on getting them. And, uh,

I guess that’s 6 days away. Is that 6 days away?

But uh, I was thinking earlier.

Part of me. I mean, I’m I don’t know, I have no idea if I’m going to really end up going down there and helping Eric, or not, you know, like, They were talking about the weather and everything. It’s pouring down rain right now. Part of me is like, you know, yeah, that would be really cool, then part of me. Does not really want to do anything even though it would be a few hundred extra dollars that I need really bad?

Yeah. Um,

I just, I don’t know. There’s a bigger part of me that just doesn’t want to do anything. Because like,

Oh my God. Yeah. What else can I say? I don’t know. Hahaha

Thank you, please.