SATURDAY NIGHT

9:14 PM
Okay. Well I am just hanging out. In my room on Saturday night.

I put a weight bench together. I still haven’t eaten since the waffle house this morning.

But I walked To the Dollar General and got sandwiched stuff and milk. And,

Some kind of a cakes lemon cakes and I hope they’re good. I’ve had a problem the last few times I’ve gotten Tasty Cake items, they’ve been like stale or something. I mean this was last year.

Because I haven’t bought any since I was like, fuck this shit. I think it was like September. I got they had those little Buttercream cakes that were really, really good, you know, they’re the best fucking things ever when they’re moist and fresh. I don’t know what the fuck happened, but I hope these lemon things are good. I’m going to open them up. Actually.

And check right now.

Oh my God.

They’re seasonal. So, um, let’s see.

What damn these things are big.

I want to eat 1.

Okay, okay.

For good. What?

That wasn’t expecting.

Hello. New piece of shit.

Oh no, the milk goes in the freezer.

It’s kind of funny.

Remake check that moved out.

Oh my God, it’s picking up. Everything. Stupid, the roommate lady that moved out. Who moved out.

Damn, that was just last week too, but uh, Kind of gave me some insight into the garbage she fucking eats. It’s kind of like, dang.

No wonder if she’s so unhealthy.

Yeah.

But uh, she did, I mean I paid her through the fucking nose but she really did help me a lot, but, you know, it was kind of

Anyways. Yeah, I was just thinking though cuz I was I opened the freezer to put the milk in the freezer and I saw like all the crap. She left. And it’s garbage that I would never eat. It’s some kind of microwave toast Sandwich. Fucking shit. That’s individually wrapped. And these those microwavable fucking pancakes and stuff.

I almost um absolutely refuse to use microwaves. I mean I won’t use them I don’t own a microwave.

I won’t ever. Buy a microwave. Yep, I hate them. I hate the way they make food taste. And I hate all of it. I hate microwaves. I would use a toaster oven before I use a microwave and I actually like toaster ovens though, I don’t know. I’ve got 1 in my Storage unit. I need to get

Of course, I do have a 2 Hot Dogs left. And I’m probably going to eat those here pretty soon.

I really miss my kids though. I was thinking about that earlier, I was cleaning up all my stuff and just seeing how my Daughter arranged. My room was just so cool.

It made me really happy. It’s like, you know, I raised some really awesome people. I mean they’re still kids but they’re fucking, they’re the best people ever. Ever made the best people ever made are my kids. Yep. And uh, they are my kids. Yeah. And uh,

I don’t know. Um,

But I spent all my money.

On, Food earlier too, you know, at the Dollar General it was like Almost fifty dollars and I think I can get some money tomorrow off my chime and I could totally use this shit they have from work. To get, uh, like my the last 3 days. Um,

I worked the money from that. Yeah, because I did it earlier just so I could pay my after pay the last afterpay thing. But um,

I don’t know that I want to do that. I kind of want to uh save money but I really need to get, I just put this weight pitch together that I mentioned that, I put this weight bench together. Yeah. It took about an hour I kind of jacked off around doing it too. So it, you know, I didn’t put it together as fast as I could or anything. I guess, what is what I mean?

And uh,

It’s really wide. It’s a lot wider than I thought it would be. So my

Uh,

Barbell. What the fuck? I can’t think of any words. Uh, It’s too short almost, I can. I mean it just barely fits My weights up there. So I’m gonna have to get another bar. And I’ll probably get.

A rug, I have to get a rug. Did I? Did I mention that already? I think I did. I don’t know. But um, Part of me wants to go back to sleep. Like I don’t know. I’m tired kind of It is Saturday and But I haven’t eaten anything, so I’ll probably need to do that and

That’s what I’m going to do when I go downstairs and eat the last 2, hot dogs.

I need to get another mirror or 2 so I can, you know, see my form when I’m doing the stuff that really helps. That’s why there’s mirrors in gyms. It’s not just so you can You know, it’s not like for Vanity’s sake. I mean, and even though it does also

The best gym though that I ever had like used on a regular basis by far, was the Honda gym. I mean, it’s insane and how great that Gym was and then the, uh, the gym that I’ve got, you know, the access to now at work. It’s kind of pathetic and the gym girls are in there all the time and they, uh, anybody else would have, you know, Been like died and went to heaven, hahaha but not me and I don’t know why like you would think. Well, it just freaks me out because I don’t have anything in common with them. And I can just tell by the music, they listen to the music that they play over the speakers. Oh gosh where do I start? It’s just a totally different thing. It’s kind of lame actually. You know, the Honda gym didn’t have anybody in it except people working out. They didn’t have like, I don’t know what their job titles are, like trainers or whatever. There’s uh this 1 chick who was actually 1 of the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen in my life.

Uh, was part of like all that at Honda, but she didn’t she wasn’t at the gym. You know, in the gym all the time or even at all, she just was worked in the building where the gym was, and what was it called? Uh,

I don’t remember it’s called The Wellness Center where I work now but it was called something else. And the building and the gym was part of it. They had a school in there too where they trained people for like robots and engineering and things. Like Honda was a really, really good gig. And it didn’t pay like the top out. Pay for regular production wasn’t as good as it is where I work now, but the processes were easier and they let you work over the, the shifts were scheduled better. The hours were better. You couldn’t beat the fucking day shift hours. It was 6 a.m. to 2:30 p.m. and it’s like, wow. And you got the whole fucking afternoon free. Yeah, and uh, you know it was closer to the kids. Honda was great. I did not want to leave Honda I was really, really lucky that. I’m able to come back, but I was able to come back to where I work now and it’s not like awful or anything. But Jesus. It’s uh, some of the stuff I guess they make up for it by how much they fucking pay you, because I’m making more now than what you top out at Honda. But if I was still at Honda, I would have gotten into the maintenance program or robot technicians or fucking Something Different by. Now, I would have gotten because of my technical aptitude And I would be happy as fucking hell and even though they did away with the swing shifts. So at Honda That wouldn’t have mattered. You know I would just and I could still work over if I you know I mean

I would probably, hopefully, eventually get on days just because of the kids, but, you know, straight nights would be cool also. But I’m just that’s that ship sailed, you know. 3 years ago when I had a nervous breakdown and it was so crazy. It’s like I just couldn’t think. It like I couldn’t anything and I started drinking to deal with it and it was all because of Brittany. And it’s really shitty and when I just I try not to, I don’t really think about her like I used to.

This has gotten a lot better the last few weeks especially since that other chick got into my brains and I haven’t even checked my other blogs to see if she’s pecked on them. And I don’t care. You know, I was looking around at her pictures like poking around at her stuff the other day and I was like no I don’t even feel. I don’t feel the same way, it’s kind of a good thing. It’s also really sad. But it’s like, you know,

It’s time to let that go. I, I hope she does the same thing. You know, like just go have a great life. Like we could have had something really awesome. 3 and a half 4 years ago, you know, maybe if we didn’t end up, if I didn’t end up blowing my fucking brains out in front of her or something. Hahaha. And that’s what I was afraid would happen. It’s just, I could just, I don’t know. It was uh it’s a lot of stuff. I don’t hate her or anything. I don’t wish anything awful on her, but I don’t want to think about her anymore. And it sucks and eventually I’m going to have to go take care of that stupid ass warrant. I have in Weaver Alabama but you know that shouldn’t have even happened. She was that was like the most piece of shit fucking thing that she could have ever done.

And I don’t want to talk about it anymore. That was just, that was the oh my God, that ruined it right there. That I mean, anything we could have had when she did that ruined it and it was just the rest of it was just me being nostalgic. Haha, it’s not really funny though. It’s 1 of the worst. Fucked up things I’ve ever had to deal with from a woman. I mean, the only other person that like, my ex-wife was the only person who like, surpassed that

Yeah, I know.

And this all only because I ran away. You know, and I couldn’t help it and she just turned that into something. I don’t know what she got. All up in her head. Right, I guess for any anybody to just stumble Along on this blog without any context? Yeah.

Gosh. But it is it’s Saturday night and I actually have like a little bit of energy and I’m tired, but I’m not like, Like like I’m being pulled into the abyss, fuckin tired. Like I was this morning, you know, I slept until

4:30 p.m., you know, I got woken up.

Momentarily. But then I after I made that last post, I fell back asleep. And I’m really proud of myself for walking to the dollar store and for putting this weight bench together.

And I think uh I’m going to work out a little bit. I’m going to go eat, I’m going to get my hot dogs. My last 2, hot dogs.

9:29 PM
I gotta go to my storage unit, I really need to do that. Uh tomorrow And get my toaster oven and get some other things.

Because I don’t I kind of want to get to where I don’t even have to leave my room if I don’t want to except to, you know, get a shower and brush my teeth and you know, just bathroom stuff. Haha. Yeah, but like I don’t, I don’t like leaving my room when I’m here. I don’t like being in the kitchen. You know, uh, like to see me on social media and stuff. You would think I was like the most just extroverted stupid person ever. But I’m not, I’m really, really Really introverted. I’m like the most introverted person. Anybody has ever met But uh, like I’m so introverted that I talk to myself and make a Blog out of it. It’s really funny.

And I, I don’t know that I’ll ever put this back up on my Facebook.

Or Instagram or anything. I don’t think I’ll ever. I’ll just, you know, somebody stumbles upon it, all you have to do is Google my name and the uh town I’m from or the community. I’m from its which is right up on my Facebook page. And this this is the first thing that pops up. I know, it’s really funny. But uh, anyways

Oh my gosh, I’m just glad to have a day off, and I don’t have any obligations right now? And it’s like it’s late. So um, nothing Nobody’s going to bother me about anything this which is what I love about. I get to just be What I love about night shift? Yeah, I just get to be like, you know, around and do whatever. And uh I still haven’t met the new roommate guy, which I guess. He’s not the newest roommate anymore because we just had 1 move in and she seems really awesome.

But uh,

I’m probably going to eat.

And then uh I’m going to edit this while I’m waiting for my hot dogs to cook. And then I’m going to uh

Play. Some I’m going to play some Red Dead Redemption 2 in Spanish and they have an option for Italian. And I, I’m just really Really probably I might do that because, you know, Spaghetti Westerns right? Like gosh, oh and I love Italian so much.

And that’ll help. I think that would be a good medium for me to get back into languages with is video games.

And I don’t have to play them forever and then I’ll probably work on some music, you know, 2 3, mm or something. At 2 or 3 AM or something. And then I’ll uh do that until the sun. Starts to come up. What? Like 5 5:30 and then I’ll go walking again and then I’ll come back and go to sleep. And that’ll be my whole weekend. Yep.

Well I guess and then like tomorrow I have I’ll have like be able to do the same thing but I got to do my chores. I’m not going to skip out on them just because the boss lady roommate isn’t here.

I don’t know what else to say. Haha, Yay. Yay. Thank you, please.