SUNDAY MORNING

3:14 AM
Okay, I guess there is a good reason why I use the fucked up phone to make blog posts.

Because it just works better for that. That’s like the best thing it does.

Um, I just got done practicing.

Fucking, I don’t know, 8 or 10 songs or something, for my set and The other night at work, Thursday night at work. I just went off singing, all crazy, and I think I pushed my voice too hard and I shouldn’t have. And I’ve been struggling with this crap for like all year. It’s like allergies and stuff. It’s really stupid.

But um,

I got that vocal trainer thing and it helps But uh, I really just need to practice more. That’s what it amounts to, and I don’t, Uh, I haven’t been out there in the garage. Playing my stuff.

Since last week, like, I mean like, uh, The shutdown week. Not I guess. Technically now it’s Sunday. Uh, last week was at work so it was uh, I guess that’s why I felt like I ought to sing. You know, while I was at work. But um,

And I don’t remember what night that was when I practiced last. I think it was

I think it was Tuesday.

Um, or Wednesday. Yeah, so it’s been a week and a half basically since I practiced Yeah, so I, you know, I need to practice at least 3 times a week.

And I don’t because when I get off work, I don’t want to do shit. And that’s pretty normal for a car factory.

It really sucks. I’ve never been as tired as I am. When I get off work at this job, like, even when I do house remodeling, uh, which the other day, Last. Week before last. Right? Um, how I got off? Uh, Monday and got some beer and drank beer and went over my set. I was so happy. You know, it’s a totally different animal house remodeling. It’s like and you’re doing you’re out in the fresh air and you’re doing like cool stuff. You’re making things with your hands and, you know, just almost an adventure every day.

Which is probably why my house remodeling bosses is in such good physical condition, at almost 70 years old, like

Like he’s like the most badass fucking dude ever and it’s because, you know, he gets out and he does something that he really loves and he’s like the best there is at it and it’s like, dang, dude. Oh, I mean the only other person that compares to him is my dad. Like those are the 2, most badass fucking Guys I’ve ever met, you know, and my old pal Brandon’s dad

But uh, yeah, at a car factory, it’s just the same thing over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over. And then uh, you change every 2 hours. And I got that 1 process that, uh, really sucks. And the way the whole thing is set up, it just

It’s really stupid. Um, but like Whatever.

But when I get off work, I’m really tired and I’m, I should

At least set aside, like, An hour to practice my just to go over my set like once. You know, I mean, like, you know, 8 songs or 10 songs or something, that’s what I should do.

Consistently.

And uh, you know, I’m trying to get everything back on the C standard format and uh, because it really like my best songs are In C standard, but then I have some really good ones on in standard tuning that I’ve come up with since I bought that nylon string guitar.

And they don’t always translate like demonita does not. Translate well to C standard and Um but frogs which is I think way better is 1 of my best songs. Uh does not translate to standard tuning, well at all. It’s kind of funny, but, um, I don’t know, C standard, just fits my, my voice better. You know.

Standard tuning. I’m, I’m like a baritone type person.

Even though I can hit like well, when my voice is practiced up I got about a 3 octave range but You know, I can hit some higher notes, I’m going to hit some really low notes, and my normal singing voice though is kind of like, I don’t know. I guess. Yeah. I would be a considered a baritone. I’m not like a bass singer like Peter Steele, you know,

Or a tenor or a fucking, you know, above that I guess. What’s a soprano is or something? What is Alto? You know, what’s the fucking Scale of singers.

I guess Alto would be.

After 10 or right?

Okay, well, I guess, uh,

I typed in registers within their they’re talking about

Okay. Yeah, it’s like soprano. Meso soprano. Contra alto tenor, baritone and bass. Okay. Um, My mom had a 7 octave vocal range.

Uh, I think A woman’s voice is much better suited for singing. Uh, gosh, I would so much rather listen to a woman sing

That, you know, I mean Oh, they do. I’m trying to think like some of my favorite female singers, uh, the chick from, uh,

Requin Chagrin. It’s a grief shark in French.

My ex-Fiancée had the most beautiful voice I ever heard

PJ Harvey is probably uh, I love her so much. If I hadn’t met my ex-wife, when I was younger, I was like, you know, I’m going to go to a PJ Harvey concert and I’m going to meet PJ Harvey. I’m going to we’re going to fall in love that. That’s what was my dream when I was like 18. Hahaha Yeah I swear to God and then I met my ex-wife, you know, it’s like

Oh well but I didn’t really think it was that realistic. But she’s the only celebrity crush and she’s really like a low-level celebrity. A lot of people don’t know who the hell she is you know but uh the only celebrity crush I’ve ever had And I’ve never had a celebrity crush. Well, when I was a kid, I had a crush on Judy. Jetson, you know, isn’t that?

Actually, I’m in like an 80s. Group. Uh, was it 670 and 80?

Nostalgia group 1 of those stupid ass groups and somebody posted like what was your you know cartoon Crush when you were a kid and I was like, oh my God. Judy Jetson. I thought she was so pretty. I loved Her white hair.

But she wasn’t an old woman. Hahaha

Uh, anyways.

I don’t even know. I’m just blabbering. I’m like I’ve had a lot of caffeine. And I was really, really, really tired earlier, but I do get a lot of bullshit out when I sing too, I was, uh, really struggling until I did pet ocean.

And that’s 1 of my weirdest songs. Um,

It’s back when I was on medication and I did like sometimes I would really just abuse my Adderall. And one time I stayed up for 2 days straight. Yeah, and I made up that song about uh, Was like, people were talking about their pets in the polyglot first world problems group, and I was like, well, I have a pet ocean. And I made up a little poem to go along with that and then I was like, well those are pretty funny song lyrics and then I just made up a crazy song, it’s really heavy. It’s 1 of my heaviest songs and I just kind of thrash on it out on acoustic and yell it and it’s like, yeah.

It’s real dramatic sounding but that’s offset by the stupid fucking lyrics. Which to me, makes it. You know, it’s funny. And, I don’t know. But then after that, I kind of got, I was like, yeah. And I did a couple more songs, a few more songs or something. And then I was just like well I don’t want to push it, you know.

But if I’m going to really like seriously practice and get my voice in shape, it’s hard to really do that sitting down playing an acoustic. I need to be standing up like, I don’t know, because I can get more air out that way and like hold my neck and modulate the sound, When I’m standing up. But getting off Kratom has helped a lot too. I think that was what Um, made me because it depresses my voice. Like I, I can’t hit. Uh, I didn’t realize how bad it was though till I’ve got off of it. Um, but I remember really struggling when I was recording Universe girl and that’s been fucking 5 years ago almost.

Uh, I was, you know because I was

Just being a shithead, but I wasn’t like that’s I wasn’t like addicted to it. Or anything that I just had some And I was like, oh, just It, it messed, it like, it does something to my vocals. It like depresses them where I can’t go quite as high. And I was having a really hard time hitting the last part of universe, girl. It’s the, it’s the hardest song I have to sing. And that is the highest, uh, note that any of my songs note to hit is the end of that song. Ugh. It’s a, uh,

It’s a c. It’s like a really high C. I can’t remember though. It’s like Maybe it’s an octave above middle C, or maybe an octave above that? Yeah. It’s an octave. It’s 2 octaves above middle C. I’m pretty sure is it. No, I think it’s like an octave above middle C. I don’t fucking remember, but anyways this this the highest note that I have to hit ever in any of my songs.

And so, um,

I couldn’t do it. And then, I like stopped taking it and I was like, well, you know, I’m just going to take what I have left and then I’m not going to get any more and, uh, a week or 2. Later I went back and tried to do it again and I hit the note without any trouble at all and I was like, well, God damn. And I guess I forgot all about that. So that’s another thing I’ve been Yeah. That’s been like messing with it this year but I finally got off of it and I was singing at work. I was like, hey I can hit these notes and I would just I pushed it way too hard. And my voice isn’t used to singing like it used to, like used to, you know, 10. 15 15 or 20 years ago. Yeah, I’m thinking, you know, I don’t know where the hell the time is. I forget that I’m 45, you know, it’s like I lost a decade in there somewhere.

A couple of decades actually. But uh yeah you know 20 years ago. I like I sang all the time I had a Really incredible range, uh, and just and not just not so much my range, but my voice control was so much better. And uh, well, you know, life happens. I got out of playing regularly after the kids were born. That’s when I got into the languages and everything but speaking of which I thought you know I’m just going to play Red Dead Redemption 2 in Spanish. Well no you’re not. It just changes the fucking menu and all the dialogue is subtitled in the fucking Spanish. It’s the same shit and I just I don’t know why I thought it was going to be like, you know,

I, I don’t know, but I didn’t play the story mode. I think I might try

3:31 AM
I was just online walking around shooting at people and the same thing on GTA 5. You know, I thought, you know, people would be like Saying stuff to me in French on the street, but they don’t. And everything’s subtitled. It’s like, dang.

It’s not what I thought it was going to be.

Isn’t that the story of my life though? You know. It’s uh 3. Fucking 30, a.m. is a

Yeah. 3:31. A.m.

I really wish I could, uh, Could have another band that would be really great, like just a drummer and a bass player.

Well, anyways, I guess I’m just going to wrap this up. It hit its second time stamp it. Yeah, actually yeah. Just that’s what made me realize it was 3:30.

Um, I’m going to get My strings out of the car and restring my electric. But I’m going to keep my Like the ones I have on it for standard tuning, and then I’m going to uh, I may just go out. In the garage and mess with it. I don’t know.

Yeehaw!

Thank you, please.