SATURDAY NIGHT

11:33 PM
Okay, yeah, yeah. I’m just, um

Doing nothing.

It’s hard. But I’m tired. Yeah, it is hard to do nothing, but I’m really tired and I’m like not making myself do anything.

What I should have done last weekend, but I did not.

No.

I figured why not make a blog post.

Yeah.

I was thinking about, like, music and stuff like

I just don’t really find a lot of new music. Anymore.

I did, uh, the last time I really found a bunch of new music was like 5 years ago. And uh,

Most of the new stuff that I’ll listen to. It’s not new anymore though, but it came through my daughter which is really funny.

And uh because she just has this really weird these like eclectic tastes in music like I do but the stuff that It’s like it’s newer stuff. It’s weird but it’s good. And uh, but like I stayed up, I got on a a painting kick about, I guess it’s been over 5 years ago. Now when I did a bunch of Art in The Farmhouse on the walls and stuff,

And uh, I was listening to I can’t even remember what but it just started playing stuff. I guess that was like similar it though I’m talking about YouTube music. And, Oh just all this other stuff. Started popping up. I was like hey this isn’t bad. What the fuck. And uh that’s the last time I really found. New music and some of it was like Russian music and that’s how I got into Russian music. That’s where they just popped up.

Uh, as I was listening to other stuff,

And I thought it was really good like uh it started off. I think with molchat DOMA. And uh then like every month, uh, and I’m going to have to type all that in. Peremotka And uh, Anglia, which is this like

Uh,

I don’t know it’s funny because it’s like you can tell they’re trying to imitate like Joy Division and Um, fucking, uh, the Cure and the pesh mode. And it’s like those, uh, those groups mushed together in Russian and that’s what all those sound like.

Looks so Ponto, they sound really like, uh, I’m gonna have to type that in, Peremotka you know, they they have a real like notalgic sound. Well, the name means rewind in Russian. And they have a real uh,

I had the word right in my brain and I lost it. Um,

A really fun sound though. They have uh they did a version. It sounds like something you would hear. Like, like in the 1960s. Blasting out of a radio, the production, everything they nailed it, pretty good uh version of Highway to Hell. It’s uh, It’s really funny.

https://youtu.be/Pau4f4113f0?is=2mA47VvtG8yizxcC

And what’s even funnier is uh, what the just I mean they are brilliant guys. I think there’s just 3 of them and they nailed the fucking shit like they, the the words, some of the Russian words sound like English words, but it’s not. And, uh, it’s um, it just, it’s just really funny how they pulled that song off. You know, when I first heard it it was that was like 2022 and I just thought, oh my God, I almost died laughing

I almost wrecked laughing. I think I was in my car when I first heard that the version of Highway to Hell. But um, Yeah. Gosh. I haven’t found any new music though since then. And every now and then stuff will pop up. I think the last New thing of um, I listened to that. I heard that popped up that I liked. Was this uh This dude I guess it’s just 1, dude. That’s called pink shroom but it’s it’s just like 1 Song. The rest of the stuff kind of sucks. Oh, what is the name of that damn song? Oh, I don’t know. I think last year Dax rigs put out a new album but all the songs sounded the same except for like 1 or 2 that sounded better than the others but they all sounded the same. It was an ep. Actually. But then, uh, Fucking Acid Bath has been touring a lot. I still haven’t. Went to 1 of their shows, because every time and this was last year, I think

Uh, they sold out. Every show. Uh,

Like I couldn’t get tickets, so that’s why I’m but I just kind of gave up and then they’ve been popping up on my news, feed on Facebook a lot.

They have been playing a lot, and that makes me happy because, uh,

That was probably my all-around favorite band in the 90s and I mean their stuff is so cheesy though, like their lyrics and shit, but the music was so great. And uh, you know, Dax Riggs, solo stuff was really Yeah, thanks for spelling that right. It it changed it and then it changed it back. But um,

Some of my favorite music ever. I, I don’t really like the, uh, we sing of blood or love album. That much. Except for, like, 3 or 4 songs because some of that stuff is so stupid. I don’t know what the I don’t know if he was on heroin or what the fuck? When he wrote that shit?

But his last solo album. Say good night to the world. Yeah, that was that I think was his best work. All around best thing.

And then that uh we are night Sky thing, he did with that chick who I read somewhere, she died that drummer chick uh That was had some really good songs on it, too. I saw them. I saw him a couple times. With that. And that chick, I remember talking to her and she was really pretty and she got really flirty with me, but I was, you know, married at the time My ex-wife was actually there. Uh, I was like dang. But um, anyways, I don’t know.

I still can’t pull myself. Like I went on an adventure earlier. I went to Sam’s Club. I don’t know what I was thinking and I went to the 1 because I had to go to Academy Sports To get a bar for my weight match. And, uh, I went to the Sam’s Club. That was closer to that. And there wasn’t anything there. It was like, dang, this is like, I just left I just turned around and walked out. I was looking for sandwich stuff. I thought I could find some bulk sandwich items cuz I remember doing that once and they didn’t have hardly anything at that 1. And then I thought, you know I’m going to get something like really fancy, you know, that’s what I was in the mood for. So I went to Whole Foods and it was like a wasteland as far as sandwich stuff goes. And I was like, well I just go to Publix. So I went to Publix and Found pretty much what I was looking for. Made me really happy.

I’m going to have to go to the dentist sometime soon.

Uh, I need to just call next week and make an appointment for some time. Uh,

Before I go back on day shift.

Just the I guess it was 3 years that I drank like a piece of shit and smoked

A lot it’s uh, I don’t know. Yeah, the Honda plant happened, you know.

I didn’t really take care of myself very much. Very well and, uh,

Up until all this past.

This year. Yeah, I started taking better care of myself and I think I’m still reeling from Kratom withdrawals. Its kind of sucks and it is really stupid.

But I don’t know. It’s It’s crazy. That the job I have makes me this fucking tired. It’s insane. How tired I am. And I hate it, because I got A billion fucking things I want to do.

But it’ll get better. I feel a lot better. I feel so much better than I did like a couple days ago. And last night wasn’t that bad either at work. I was like, this isn’t this is better. This is a lot better. Um I didn’t think I was going to make it Thursday. I was so fucking I wanted to blow my brains out. So fucking bad. Like literally not just like, oh I just want to blow my brains out like Like, you know, just saying that as a joke. It was pretty bad and then uh, now I’m fine. I feel okay. Yeah.

Just,

I really wish I had more free time. I don’t know, I’ve been thinking a lot about a lot of stuff but I think I’m really right now, I’m doing my best. Like my best options. You know, I have them right now. I’m not going to do any better than I’m doing right now. So that’s okay. And I do miss my kids, but I talked to my daughter for a little bit earlier and I talked to my son. And, uh, I just miss them. I hate being 2 hours away from the kids. That’s like, That’s 90% of why I’m sad. And then, uh, you know,

But I did get another bar for my weight bench. I’m going to I need to go out to my car and get that and put it together and uh It totally should be long enough. Yeah.

And I’m going to do that, I think I probably should just work out. And that’ll make me feel better.

And then I had planned to, um,

Do some music out in the garage.

I’m going to mess with that. So yeah, I guess I feel better. I need to make another post to make me feel better. Yeah, I need making a post when I knew that Jesus this there’s this is the best app I could find. I’ve used other apps and this is like it’s the best 1. It’s much as sometimes I want to.

I hate it sometimes. Yeah. It’s the best. What was I saying?

I knew that making a post would make me feel better. Yeah.

It usually does.

Even if it’s excruciating to read. Um but something getting all these weird off hits on this blog like people from There just reading articles. Like just all over the place from other like last year and You know, 3 or 4 months ago and uh, I mean like 10 articles And it’s like, okay and I don’t know what’s this, just WordPress doing it or if Brittany’s doing something like a, she pecked all on my fucking blog, my other Blog. The last few days

I just, I haven’t posted anything for her in a long time. I posted all that stuff because she was pecking on it so much. I just started telling her, you know, Like, I mean, there’s some posts here. I can’t remember. Even how long ago that was maybe that was May or June or something.

But then I was just, I just stopped because you know what the hell am I to her? You know, like what am I like

Like what does she even you know, does she think it’s funny? You know, she like hey I can make this guy like do stuff watch this and then you know, I stopped doing it, I don’t know.

It’s uh, It got old. It’s gotten really old to me. And it’s sad. It’s like a complete waste of a love story and it’s all because of her.

And I don’t get anything normal ever like that. It’s like no, you get just the weirdest.

Shit. Yeah.

I don’t know if she thinks. I’m ignoring her like it’ll start weird stuff will start happening though. Like, uh, there’s this band that she’s friends with. I think they’re from actually, from, uh, Gadsden or something and she’s like friends with them and they made it, they’re not like big. They didn’t make it big or anything, but they’re, they’re starting to get a little bit of gain a little bit of momentum.

11:49 PM
They’re playing some Festival in muscle shows, and shows and

And October. And muscle shows.

Shows. And whatever and in October and uh, It just popped up on my feed and I was like really And so It made me think of Brittany and then earlier when I got out of my car at Academy sports I saw a green Honda Civic. I thought I did anyways, it was uh,

It was a 4-door though.

And, uh, when I was at Academy Sports and I walked up, I was walking towards it when I noticed, it had 4 doors and it drove away. I was like, well, damn, you know,

So you know that that happened today. It’s like if I try to forget about her or something pops up always, you know will pop up eventually? To reminded me of her or I’ll just see her You know, like pass her on 431 or something, and it’s really crazy.

And probably the same things happened to her. I haven’t dreamt about her in a while. Though. Um, I had a really crazy dream. Uh,

Earlier, I guess before I got up at, like, I think I woke up at like 4:00 or something. Um, that I bought my daughter. A truck like a, it was like a late 60s, early 70s model Ford truck, um from 1 of my Arab cousins, And they, uh, were like

What well it needs a new brakes but you can drive it, you know, it was funny.

And it was a manual transmission and I had to teach my daughter how to do that in my dream. It was It’s kind of funny. It was scary. Yeah.

I miss sometimes I really miss having a manual transmission.

The last 1 I had was a Kia Sephia, a 1998, Kia, Sephia. It was the last, uh,

Manual transmission car that I had, and I wish I’d have never sold a, um, so it’s just a soul to my housekeeper at the time.

And we used to have a housekeeper. I don’t know.

I don’t know if I’ll ever have money again like that. You know, let me see.

It was really crazy to think of to look back on like how I am just who I am, you know now and who I was. 10, 15 years ago was really funny. But like my ex-wife’s doing great, you know, she, I think she went wasn’t that long ago. She went to Las Vegas Uh, To see a 9 inch nails concert.

Yep, but I’ve had carrot cake. I’m almost tempted to get into

Finish off or something. I don’t know. This is 1 of those times. I thought I had a bunch of shit in my head that sounded Sounded cooler than it actually ended up being when I When I talked it out.

Yep, thank you, please.