SATURDAY AFTERNOON

4:50 PM
Oh gosh, what am I doing? I am, um, I’m laying in the bed. I’m trying to figure out what I want to do.

Well, I know what I need to do. I need to go to

Walmart or something and get Stuff.

I need to get a longer bar for my weight bench, maybe that can be found.

There, or I could go to a Academy Sports.

Shitt, I don’t know.

I hate the way this app spells curse words.

It’s like fuck you know. Well sometimes it does it correctly. But it’s really stupid and I don’t know who programmed this piece of shit to do that.

I really miss my kids and, uh, it sucks.

Feel like I just missed so much. With them, you know, the last few years.

Yeah, like the last 3 years. It’s like Dang

I am tired. Yeah, I am. And it’s like I got up earlier, like not that long ago and got a shower. And I was like yeah I’m going to go, go do stuff, go out and then I just laid down and I don’t want to get back up, but I need to I need to get some more stuff for my room.

I wish I could find 1 of those little cheap ass like hundred and something dollar workstation keyboards like the cheap ones.

Uh, that have all the sounds and the drum beats drum patterns and all that, um, that we used to use for project Odin, which I think Eric has still got it, but it, you know, half the keys, don’t work anymore, it’s 30 something years old, Um,

Because that’s what I’m wanting to use for the concept album and I have like, a dinky little synth. It’s really not though. It actually sounds Decent but it’s it’s like that but it’s on my recording software it’s on the Cakewalk software. That’s

20. 2 years old now. Yeah, 22 years old. I’m using 22 year old recording software but it works. It works great actually. But there’s part of me that thinks maybe I ought to upgrade. Yeah.

Thought about getting another toaster oven, a new 1 instead of um,

Using my old 1 but then I don’t want to not use the old 1. I don’t want it to go to waste. It’s a perfectly good toaster oven and it got me through some really dumb times in The Farmhouse.

But it’s probably 5 or 6 years old, which isn’t not. It’s not bad, that’s not old right for a toaster oven. I don’t. No, I’m just trying to think I still have to get a camera. Y’all, but I’ll should be able, I’ll pay the rent and I should be able to uh, I paid rent. That’s another thing about this app. Sometimes I’ll say something in the past tense and it’ll put it like in the You know, like I will do something. What is that? The I guess the future is it, is it the tents?

Or maybe that is uh, I’m going to do it in the future.

Maybe it’s just the future tense. Yeah, I don’t remember. It’s been a long time since I studied languages and that makes me kind of sad. I don’t know.

I didn’t say, I don’t know either it just put that there. Maybe it tried to anticipate. I don’t know. This fucking app. Does not make sense to me half the time, but it works. Yeah, because I can always just edit everything out, but I don’t, I talk about it. I’m like I correct it through uh Pointing it out as I’m talking. Haha It’s like I didn’t say that you know look how that picked that stupid word up. Aww my son just Texted me that he misses me. I’ll probably go see them tomorrow for something.

But that’s when I’ll get my toaster oven.

Yeah.

Well, anyways, I need to um,

Yeah, my ex-girlfriend messaged me again this morning and I was just like, I mean, she messaged me really early like at, like 1:30 or something a.m. And she messaged me again at like 7:00 to what I, you know, said to her and I was like, you know what, what the hell are you even doing this weekend? And she said she was bed rotting and I thought yeah. Like what? What about that? Dude, that you’re supposedly with, Is? He like broke or something. And she hasn’t replied to that. I don’t know.

I kind of imagine her like I’m just probably 1 of A You know, a probably a revolving door, dudes. She fucks around with But she just, I mean, I guess of all the guys that she tries to keep on a string. Yeah, I don’t think. I’m the only person that she does this to. There was this 1. Hello. It was this 1. Are you just not going to pick that up? Well, there was this 1. It’s not going to do it. It’s not picking up photographer guy. Okay. Well anyways there was this 1 photographs, I say it.

Oh my God. What a stupid. This app like this app is so fucking stupid. Hello.

That was this 1. It’s not going to say that it’s not going to pick that up this photographer. Yeah, dude or whatever. He’s a real goddamn loser, too. And uh, she like was involved with him before she met me and then it was like, there’s like another guy that’s, uh, He was really he was like a real estate agent and he’s really rich and I mean she’s just she’s crazy, you know, I don’t I think she likes to have like a main, dude. Who does regular stuff and takes her places cuz she’s been to the beach twice this year, right? Like don’t go off on a rant about your ex-girlfriend you know I’m just not even going to mess with that now, you know it’s like but all that shit up there that I just said, that’s why? Yeah, but I’m like, you know, I’m the hot crazy artist who made up a whole album’s worth of songs about her? Haha And she’ll post stories sometimes with my songs and um, like huu I miss him and you know, So, I don’t know, but it’s, it’s like it’s flattering a little bit but it’s like, you know, Okay. Stephanie like, thanks. But uh, all she’s ever done, is drive me fucking like.

Really crazy and it sucks.

And plus, she lives all the fucking way in Coleman. So I’m not going to Not driving out to Coleman to for her to Stick her hands in my brains and pull them out. And

You know, I don’t know, you know how people play with the Slime and then just put them back in when she’s done. Yeah, I’m not all really. I don’t want to subject myself to that again.

Well, what else can I say? You know, I don’t know. And that chick who was in my brains like she’s gone and that’s kind of funny. I figured that would probably happen but it was, I was like, dang. Noo, don’t go. Haha But now now I don’t care.

Thank you, please.