MONDAY EVENING

6:05 PM
Okay. Well, I just got home and I was going to go to Walmart and get a bunch of crap. But then I decided um

I would just

Go to Sam’s Club and get. I don’t I had no plans. Yeah, and so I ended up getting more beef stew. And then I got some fig boards. I got a big box of my fig bars. 32 bars. Haha and I got some sushi and some of the saltiest energy drink.

Saltiest Celsius Thank you.

Celsius energy drink mix Just the mix

Oh, what else?

Uh today was Monday. It is Monday and you know how those go at work and everybody talked about how they didn’t even feel like they had a weekend off because we came in and did inventory but we we didn’t have to it was volunteering, you know, and I did and I’m not ever volunteering. For inventory again because I would have rather slept in I was going to get the kids this weekend but my daughter’s best friend is moving off to like South Carolina or something North Carolina, maybe and uh like soon. So, They need to hang out and stuff. They’re going to do something Saturday and it’s like, well, that’s fine. Because my birthday weekend would be better. For that. Because my daughter also has of course, something going on Monday, too. Which is, you know, Labor Day. And uh it’s it’s weird though because it’s like family day at work there this is like this big outing thing that everybody’s going to go to and my daughter has this band competition. That she absolutely cannot miss. And it’s the same day as family day. I was like, what the hell? You know, like

I miss my kids. Why can’t, it work out that way. It makes me really sad.

Oh but it’s like my friend 1 of my friends from work. His name is Trevor he’s like the coolest dude ever. He’s like he’s the boss. And uh, you know, he will be like for real 1 day but like I treat him like the boss because he always knows what the hell’s going on and he’s really smart. And so I’m like, you know, I’m really sad about that. He’s like, hey, you just got all this free time you need like this is when you can find what you need to be doing. It’s like, well, I got my music. He’s like, yeah, there you go. Just work on your damn music and stop being sad all the time. I know that’s Easier said than done.

And it is, but

I just still, I don’t care about anything. As much as I do the kids and it’s, I don’t know. I feel like it’s getting a little better. I kind of worked on that this weekend. Like, um, You know caring about myself a little bit more uh actually changing my diet. Like I’ve done has helped a lot. Yeah, that’s helped.

Really, uh, I really wish I had a girlfriend, though.

If the Universe ever. Wanted to give me a birthday present.

Oh, I hear somebody is clumping up the stairs with something heavy, and it’s loud and scary.

I need to lift weights, I need to work out and um but I ate sushi. I got that from Sam’s Club. They have the damn crab Brandon sushi. Crab Ranch, sushi. Crab Ramen.

I I don’t know why it’s like a really common. It’s almost like a

Ran goon. Yeah, crab.

Crab, ran goon.

Thank you, Sushi. And it’s the fucking best. It really is. I ate I ate it already on the way home and they only had 1 out, or I would have bought 2, but I got another thing of sushi.

I love sushi.

I remember back before, Sushi was a thing. Uh, people were like, ew, yuck Sushi and now it’s really popular because it’s so good. I read an article though. 1 time about how it’s impacted, the fishing industry or something.

The sushi you know, Trend, it’s uh yeah.

My brains. I had a little too much caffeine today. And I ended on the shitty process. It wasn’t that bad though.

They called for 45 minutes overtime, but we only ended up getting about 30, which is okay.

I did not want to get out of bed this morning. I did not leave the house. I usually leave the house at 4:30. I did not leave the house until 5:45 and I wanted to call in so bad. I was like, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. But um, I went and I’m glad I did.

I actually I’m not as tired feeling right now as I was when I woke up this morning, It’s really crazy. But, um, Yeah. I’m, I’ll be ready for the 3-day weekend and if I don’t get the kids, Oh, that’s fine. I’m going to do stuff and I’m going to rest, I’m going to walk a bunch

That’s one of my favorite things to do is get up. Like if I’m on nights, I’m already up but if I’m on days, I get up early on Saturday morning. And Sunday morning, and I go walk

It’s like the best stuff ever, and I’m fixing to do that.

No, I’m pretty soon. Here pretty soon. Yeah. I’ve seen this chick walking, her dog a couple times the last The last few times I’ve been out and I saw her, I passed by her again. Uh, Going home.

And uh I was like hey there’s the lady, you know, and I just, I don’t know, like, I always wave at her and stuff and she’s really nice but then, you know, that’s the thing when you’re like, walking around and neighborhood and other people are walking around the neighborhood. I’m not, I feel weird kind of hitting on anybody, you know, uh, even though that 1 chick, like ran up to me and started walking beside of me the other day. You know, I just still didn’t know what to say. I was like, well, maybe she’s just trying to like Make sure I’m not a creep or something. I don’t I don’t know. I don’t

I don’t.

How am I trying to say? Like It’s really hard for me to just like walk up and flirt with a chick and You know it just is and and just any old you know, environment like anywhere, you know, but that it’s actually how a lot of people meet I was thinking about because at work. I was like man you know I don’t have anything in common with any of these chicks. Like I’m not going to find a girlfriend at work and then uh 1 of my team leads was like hey I met my wife here, you know? And that happens a lot. Actually, I just, I think I have such rigid boundaries with everything to minimize drama. You know, I actually I think it’s best that I keep it that way. Yeah, I’m not going to be like, well, maybe I should slack off a little bit on that but I don’t think so. Haha Yeah.

That was 1 of the things about Brittany. I was going to make an exception for her, but you know, it didn’t didn’t work out that way. Yeah, I still don’t she still pecks on my blog. I haven’t talked about her in a in a minute though. I feel like

I still feel kind of bad about Stephanie finding, you know, reading that stuff. But it’s like, you know what, what did you expect? I imagine her like, because I had made a post years ago where I had made my blog private Uh, again and this was a 4 year old post and I was like, um, you know, commenting on it. It was in my memories, my Facebook memories, and I was like, you know, gosh back when because I got like, 60 reacts to it. And I was like, Wow back when people actually still gave a shit about. You know what I posted because they used to I used to could post any old crap and get Like if I posted a picture or something of myself, I’d get a 100 likes in an hour and now it’s like I don’t get, I might get 25 or 30. Like I think the last 1 I posted that got a bunch of reacts was uh, something with the kids and it got about 40. And I don’t even remember what that was. I think it was my son’s graduation

What was my point of that? Yeah. And she liked it. That’s how I knew it was her because then uh, she liked that post. It’s like well this is a 4 year old post. And then she all of a sudden She? Uh, like I saw, I noticed some hits on my old blog and then a shit ton of hits on my well it’s not new anymore but my main blog now it’s like damn. And I knew it was Stephanie and I imagined her thinking all this nice crap but instead she got to read how awful she was and then she deactivated her account. And that made me feel bad. It’s like it probably hurt her feelings, but it’s like, you should have. Left me alone 5 years ago. I mean like why are we even you know what, what are you even still trying to do? You know, I don’t I’m not 1 of those people that stays friends with their exes. It’s just not

I haven’t had that many, you know, It’s, it’s not that it’s not to me, it just doesn’t seem very healthy.

Otherwise, you know, if you know if it was like

It’s a I don’t even know how to start explaining it right now. I don’t feel like it, I’m just blabbering because of, I’m still reeling from all the caffeine, but I’m laying here and I feel great because I’m just laying down. And uh, now it just kind of hit me, you know, the more I talk the more I’m going to have to edit. So

Uh, I think I’m just gonna do that now. And then I’m gonna work out and go walking and then come back, and then I’m gonna fall asleep. Yay. Thank you, please.