4:28 PM
Oh gosh. I am, I just woke up from a nap. Yeah. A 3 hour nap. I went to Publix.
And I got, uh, they didn’t have those Tarts because
I don’t know why.
So I got, uh, I got a thing of chili. A big bowl of chili is raining, and it’s cold.
And it was anyways, it was like a 11 a.m. when I went out and I got uh Looks like a cup. It was like a
Container of chili, I don’t know. It was about a liter maybe and I ate all that with cornbread.
And cheese. And
I bought these fucking cinnamon rolls that had cream cheese osen all over them.
Hello.
Hello cream. Cheese icing. Yeah, this and it was so awful uh the cream cheese sauce and you know is good. But
The, the actual stuff was really bad. It wasn’t even like
It just had like, syrupy shit all over it and the uh, edges were hard. And it’s like, they repurposed. Yeah, like some older uh, cinnamon roll things and uh put just put cream cheese icing on the top of them. To sell it
I don’t know. But it sucked and so it’s just sitting here, I’m not going to eat it. I should have just I should have went the cupcakes.
Wet with the cupcakes. I should have just went Yeah, with the cupcakes. I don’t know how stupid.
But uh, I did I commented on that post that chick made I said how Friday is it cuz she talked about How fried? Yeah, the, uh, keyboard circuit board was and I was like how fried is it? Nothing Yeah, she didn’t respond. So it’s like why did she even get in my brains? I’ve never thought about her before I never thought about her. I actually forgot she existed. And, uh, She got into my brains all 1 day. It was uh, I think about a week before the summer shutdown and Then she started popping up on the, uh,
The suggested accounts on Instagram. That was like, what the hell that that was? Uh, you know, the
Chick. I dated it was her, you know, mean crazy friend. And that’s how that’s like I that’s all she was and I hadn’t gave it a second thought, you know, since I talked that dude out of getting away from her,
7 and a half years ago, give or take. Maybe maybe a little less than that. You know. It was like, June of 2019. Yeah, I was so uh, You know, it was a long ass time ago, I don’t know why she would get into my brains, but it was when I had all my um, my Instagram was public and Uh,
You know, I had a lot of stuff up public on my Facebook. I don’t have that now anymore at all. I just Don’t trust co-workers, you know, that’s uh, that’s a lot of it.
Especially after that fuking idiot. Got in my face, it’s like okay uh let’s have some mellow drama. You know. Oh, I wish. Haha melodrama. Yeah. Uh not I don’t wish for melodrama.
I wish for mellow,
Drama. Yeah, ha.
Ha ha, but I’m using the newer. Phone. It’s almost 4 years old now though. But uh,
It doesn’t pick things up as well. Or smoothly as the older phone, that is charging. I think it’s been charging for about 4 hours now and it’s up around 60%.
54%. Okay.
Yeah. Poor little baby. I hope it makes it through.
Hello. I hope it makes it through the day tomorrow. Yeah. And uh I get paid Wednesday. So I’m probably going to get a new phone then.
Just some other, you know, like another little cheap phone that I can just pop the SIM card and Do it. And Gosh, it is November though, isn’t it?
Yeah, it’s my favorite month. November and December and January are my favorite months.
I don’t know, I guess I like all the months though. It’s uh, it starts in September and October. It’s just like I just like when it gets really into fall and November and then winter, Up until February. February is never a good month.
Gosh, I really do. I need to clean out. I need to clean up my room.
It’s weird though. I had this crazy dream when I was napping about uh,
Where I work like they were uh, doing it in a baseball field. We were having like a process Uh competition. Yeah. And and we were having to do like the shitty process that I stomp the hell out of
And uh,
Like, they were bringing people in from the other shift and it was like, you know, having to do the process. And it was like, ah, yeah, it wasn’t, it was in a baseball field and they had it like It was so dumb though, and it was like turnstyles and you had to go through the turnstile and compete. And uh, That guy.
Hello. Yeah, who hates my guts? That guy who hates me. I guess he hates me. I don’t know. I think he I think it’s maybe a little creepier than that actually. Yeah. I think he likes me. Probably more than he should and I’m just like I ignore the shit out of him. I’m like, whatever. But he’s also. I don’t know. I don’t like it, though. Yeah, it’s like it’s really stupid but he was just stomping around. All mad through the whole fucking baseball field. I don’t know. At, uh, that was my dream. I was like, well, it’s break time. I’ve got to go smoke a cigarette. And, uh, they let me go to break early. And so, I went And uh,
Yeah.
Smoked a cigarette and I don’t know it was weird. It kind of overlapped with Honda too. I’ve had a few dreams lately about the Honda plant and then Brittany and it’s like I don’t know. But that just about has to be her using a Chinese VPN. She would Totally do stuff like that. Uh I don’t really know how far all that goes because
I don’t. I just don’t. Yeah, I just don’t know anything when it comes to her.
Haha. Hahaha. But, you know, she’s uh, She’s my polar opposite counterpart. So I mean, What a crazy bunch of shit though. You know, I don’t I couldn’t have like a normal life. I couldn’t just like be a musician and do that for a living and You know what I wanted to do? I had to like all this other crazy stuff and it It put me in this, uh, Layer of reality, that’s like,
I’m all by myself all the time except for when I have my kids and anything like weird happens, you know, like that shit getting into my brain and uh, but then there’s no telling what like she what like how she reacted to that if she even. I don’t know, I looked at her Instagram story yesterday.
That I noticed she you know, I’ve never seen her post 1 of those but I don’t look at her stuff. You know, that much really because it’s she doesn’t have a lot of stuff up, but it’s like, oh, she pops up on the suggested accounts all the time.
Like a revolving door of about a dozen of the co-worker girls and 5 or 6 the local Huntsville scene girls. Yeah.
That’s what I call them, you know, they’re all like Millennials in their early mid-30s now and uh, I mean I don’t know it’s just kind of funny to see like because I know how they were you know, 7 years ago.
I really do. Wish I had a girlfriend. Yeah. I don’t know, I guess the thing too is, they’re so mean. Like, those chicks, uh, I don’t know, I just, I’d be if I’m afraid it almost afraid, they would try to make me out to be like, some kind of stalker or something
Like Brittany did. Yeah, that was
That was the meanest thing a chick ever did to me. That wasn’t my ex-wife. Yeah. Or my ex fiance or, you know, like an ex like like a girlfriend, you know.
Uh, which I have not really. Ever had a decent 1. It’s uh, it’s really stupid.
Hey, it’s 4:44. Yep, I don’t know. I was just thinking about all this crap like my life and all spaced out for a minute. And looked at the time I was like, okay, Well, uh, I don’t know. I just
I’m being really lazy today. I wasn’t yesterday. You know, I went for a walk. I don’t know, worked out a whole bunch.
But I think I’m just going to rest today, you know.
I thought about getting out again.
Check my money.
4:45 PM
Oh gosh, I only have 18 dollars? Yeah.
So, uh, anyways What I hate about cash app is, it doesn’t update your fucking shit until um
Like, you have to load it and it shows like, your old balance for a second and it’s like, hey, I’ve got money. Oh wait, no. Yeah, it’s it had 44 dollars. I know at 4:44 and uh
And all that stuff.
My God, like, This fucking phone if I hold it at a certain like, I don’t know. It’s just weird. It doesn’t pick things up. That great.
What was I saying?
Uh,
Yeah, chime doesn’t do that, though. It’s like your balance, it doesn’t kind of, it doesn’t show you what you had, you know, earlier. And then
Make you sad. That’s what it does. It’s like hey, I’ve got some money. No. Um,
Like the worst of it though is if it’s uh, I haven’t checked it in a while. And it’ll show me like I’ll I’ll just get paid or something and I’ll have like 7 or 8 hundred dollars on it. And uh then you know I’ll have I’ll spend a bunch of shit and then I’ll check it again and it’ll for like a for like 5 Seconds. It’ll it’ll show that I have like you know, 7 or 8 hundred dollars and then it’s like drops down to 120. Yeah, 120 dollars. Yeah, it’s like Why don’t, why can’t you just like? You know, it’s it’s it makes me sad.
Sometimes though it surprises me it’s like or sometimes I have more money. Yeah it’s uh every now and again.
I wonder if anybody won the lotto.
I’ll check that later. I’m not going to get into the other phone because it’s still charging. What’s it at now?
It’s not charging.
You have a little charger thing.
The little charger thing uh it just stopped. But yeah, that kind of irks me a little bit about that chick. It’s like why would you get into my brains?
You know, that’s I guess getting getting into the realm of uh where like I don’t understand women. I don’t know. But,
It’s annoying.
It probably would have been horrible, anyways. Yeah, gosh. There’s no telling
Well, what else can I say? I’m just, uh, Trying to figure out if I want to even do anything. Or just like,
You know or just lay here in the dark because it’s dark. Now it’s like almost 5:00 and it’s getting dark because it’s the daylight savings time happened. Yeah, but you know, who knows.
I mean about that chick? Yeah, like she might be asleep or at work or like It might have made a really anxious and she’s like oh no I can’t, you know, But that’s stupid. Yeah, it really is.
Even though I did I guess I mean it’s like it’s stupid for me too because like I did the same thing when I saw that and then I pounded a bunch of coffee and I was like, well guess what? I’m going to say. Is it and I did? Yeah. So, I don’t know. I’m I think I’m just blabbering about it too much. It’s stupid. Anxiety is stupid. That’s all I mean.
Yeah.
Dang though, I sure would like to fall in love again.
I’m not really feeling creative or inspired or anything. Like I just don’t really feel like working on music. But I’ll probably, you know, it wouldn’t hurt. To just go out in the garage and dick around for a little bit, right? Yeah, why not? Maybe.
Of course, it’s a work night. And so it’s like,
I don’t know, I’d rather get a good night’s sleep. Like I said, what I mean by like, you know, I could just get drink some more coffee.
But uh yeah, I’m not going to do that. I’m just going to
I think I’m just going to take it easy. I don’t know. I might go out to the garage.
Thank you, please.
