9:34 AM
Hey, I’m using my old phone and gosh. It sure does pick things up. Great.
What else am I doing today? It is, uh, it’s raining.
A lot.
And,
That chick who has been in my brains like for the last 4 months. Um, posted this thing in 1 of the Groups like The Local, uh,
City groups on Facebook. It’s like what’s happening in, you know, Whatever bunch of cities. And she has this keyboard that she’s trying to give away. But it doesn’t work. And I just thought, man.
She posted it a couple of days ago but she got all into my brains this morning and I was like, you know, what am I supposed to do? Like, I don’t need that thing. I don’t want some piece of crap that doesn’t work because I don’t part anything out because I don’t work on stuff like that anymore. I don’t care. But it is a cool keyboard that’s, you know, it’s an 88 key fucking like workstation with a um, A bendy wheel.
Yeah.
So I’m kind of struggling with that right now. It’s like, you know,
I’m afraid. She’s going to be mean to me and make fun of me though. Yeah, it is. It’s scary.
I just I can’t put into words how like on 1 hand and she’s the nicest a lady ever got into my brains on the other hand. She’s also 1 of the meanest chicks I ever met. So, uh, and scary. She’s really, really scary. So it’s like I, I just don’t I mean, that’s my type, but You know, I’ve been single for so long and I’m sad about it. But I’m not sad about Halloween anymore. I talked to my daughter last night and she had so much fun and she’s just a teenager. She’s just being A teenager and my son was just being a, you know, they’re just kids and they’re at the age.
I guess what made it extra like shitty for me is that I shaved my head. For my costume. And, you know, I had like all this stuff planned. I was looking forward to it like really, really hard. But I, I feel better about that now, you know, it’s like, you know, whatever. I think I passed out before 11 oclock last night. Yeah. And uh,
Anyways, it’s sucks that I can’t get this phone to charge very well. I have to mess with it and then like the charger. It’s way too loose after a little bit and it stops charging And I hate that because this phone, there’s nothing wrong with this phone at all. That’s the only reason why I needed another phone. And 1 of my friends gave me that other phone that doesn’t well, it’s dead now forever but uh,
Not functional. Well, it isn’t dead, it’s still on but I can’t do anything with it because the screen is so fucked up.
But I think next week, I’m going to, I guess, technically this week, uh, I’m going to uh, Just get some cheap phone and use it and that’s it. Yeah, but my daughter had a lot of fun. She hung out with all her friends and she had a whole lot more fun than she would have had with me. And that’s what, you know, that’s just what being a parent is all about. It’s like dang, you know, I’m not, I’m not that kind of a dad, like, no, way Y’all I made plans, you know? No, they they get to do what they want to do because
I want them to be happy like happy as they can be and You know, my role as a parent, I’m not their best friend or anything. I’m their dad but it’s funny. They do tell me stuff that they won’t tell their mom.
Yep. But also, I know that they’re um way more intelligent and self-aware than an average.
Teenager, you know, it’s
It’s kind of funny like my daughter is the smartest person. I know and my son is too. I mean he’s smart in a different way though. My daughter is like artistic and, uh, Just knows every damn thing. It’s crazy and my son is uh he knows everything, but In a different way. He’s a lot more. Uh, practical.
And,
Um,
It’s really funny, he’s not so much of an artist or a musician, but then at the same time, he can play the keyboards. So uh, he’s coming along with that pretty well actually, I don’t know. He’s
I don’t know. Not really figure. I can’t really figure him out. Yeah, except he’s a communist. Which is funny. I mean that’s kind of stuff like he’s really, really smart too. Both of them are just as much as the other in different ways.
They also have a lot, they get a lot of that from their mom because their mom is still the most intelligent lady that, I mean, I don’t know anybody smarter than her either.
Uh,
Gosh, I’ll never forget the speech. She gave at her sister’s wedding. It was just like,
It was so awesome. Yeah, it was. She’s just I mean there’s a reason why I loved her so much and we were together for 18 years but I don’t want to talk about that. I was just thinking, you know, my kids got the best of both of us, you know?
I said, yep.
Still picks up things wrong. Ha ha ha ha. Yeah, and I thought about,
I’m drinking coffee right now. I feel a whole lot better
Gosh, she has though. That chick has been in my brains. For 4 months. And it’s like, well, there’s an opportunity for me to just be like, hey is, do you still have that piece of shit Keyboard and, you know,
Like, oh, it’s it makes me nervous. But then it’s like well, She sure has been in my brains, so, uh, and I’m never making that up in my head. It’s like, oh my goodness.
But I did date her best friend like 7 years ago. I don’t think they’re best friends anymore, you know? But uh, They’re still friends and I just I don’t know. It just feels weird. Yeah, but like
I mean she’s really cool, you know, she’s a really great artist too. It’s just, I remember how mean and scary she was and I know that is my type mean and scary women but
Oh goodness, you know, maybe later. I’ll, I’ll collect myself or something, and Yeah, I’ll do that but I don’t know. It’s uh
It is the narcissist the lady ever got in my brain. Oh no no, not that word, not that word. Haha. I said the nicest. Jesus, I got to leave that. That’s scary. That’s so scary. Oh my goodness.
I’m pretty sure she put a spell on me. Yeah.
Hahaha also have been having A lot of Dreams lately about Brittany and I don’t know if that is her with the Chinese if she’s using a Chinese VPN or what’s going on with that. But, uh, I mean, whoever that is reads, very specific posts,
And uh, geez, yeah, it’s like
I don’t know how it could be anybody else though like unless it is just some person from China that would be you know interesting too. But I Kind of think it’s it’s probably Brittany or somebody that knows me or something, I don’t know. I hope it’s not Stephanie.
Because Stephanie, I don’t ever, ever, ever, ever want to ever see or hear from Stephanie ever again, ever like ever. Ever again and I don’t think it would be my ex-wife because I don’t think she would do that. I think she would just
Read my blog and be like, yeah, I’m reading your blog, you know, fuck you. So I’ll Yeah, I think she stopped reading my blog because you know it it does get a little crazy and I do talk about a lot of the same things over and over and over. A lot of times though, it’s like I’ll mention something and then I’ll try to expound on that a little bit. Uh,
Just for anybody who Stumbles upon it, you know, for context like if they haven’t read any of my other articles you know, so it’s like well, here’s Why this happened and all that happened and it’s just The Narrative of my life.
I really do like this little phone though. I missed it, it is slow sometimes, but it doesn’t glitch out. It’s not a piece of shit. I think I paid a hundred dollars for it if that And if I had that much on me today, I would, you know, do that again. But I think I’m fixing to get out and go to Publix. And get more of this Tarts? Yeah I am and if they have a the rotisserie chickens out I’m gonna get one of those too, if they look decent, they did not look.
Decent yesterday, morning, when I went to the Publix that had uh, the tarts On the way to get lotto tickets. And I just remembered I got a lot of tickets.
A lottery tickets. I got them. I did.
So I guess I feel normal again. I’m a little sad and then I’m a little nervous about, you know, because like on 1 hand, it’s like, you know, I really would like to give her a shot. On the other hand it’s like, you know, and I’ll look through all her stuff and I seen like all her exes and stuff and it’s like shit you know? Like She really likes. Scummy little guys. Yeah, except like, 1 of my friends, the 1 that she tortured the hell out of But, uh, we actually got to be friends because, um, I was dating that chick. And that’s who she was dating at the time and we hung kinda often and I just got to be friends with him. He’s a really cool guy. But uh, she did, she really did a number on him. He called me up, literally crying 1 night, because they were like drunk her and some other chicks had ganged up on him and were like Threatening to burn his stuff and just being really, really mean to him. And uh, my ex-wife, you know, used to do stuff like that to my friends. If she hated 1 of my friends, like she would get drunk her and like, oh my gosh, I don’t even want to go off about that, but like, I know how, I guess the point my point being is, I know how mean that like chicks can be That kind of those kind of ladies can be.
And it’s oh it’s just the funniest thing in the whole world to torture the fuck out of a guy and make him cry his eyeballs out. So it’s like uh yeah.
But he was this Meek little dude you know, I mean I don’t know like the ins and outs of their relationship or anything but uh right after that he got with this other chick and moved to damn New York State. I think New York City like I think they live in Brooklyn. Now. Yeah, so it’s like
And they’ve been together for a really long time, like for about 7 years, so maybe a little longer. Um, so I mean, you know, you know what I mean, so uh he’s he couldn’t have been that bad.
He was actually he was, he was a really cool, dude. He still is
I talked to him every now and then.
But uh, Yeah, I don’t know.
I guess that’s another thing too is like, those are like the Huntsville scene girls, you know? Uh, that’s what I met a lot of them and they all pop up on the people. I may know and on my Instagram all the time and I met a few more of them. Again, when I was doing Open, Mic nights a couple years ago and I need to start trying to get out and do that again. Actually,
9:49 AM
Coffee. Said, oh, the coffee. It’s kicking in but, uh, yeah. They’re all like a, you know, like a click, kind of, or a friend group or something. I don’t know.
Uh,
There’s a few different like friend groups, I noticed of people up here and they all of them overlap. It’s really funny. The uh that’s the thing too. Is the roommate last year? No, that was earlier this year? Yeah. Um, Oh my gosh this crazy crazy girl and uh but she’s a really good friends with that chick that I’m you know I’m talking about got into my brains. I’m I mean I’m almost positive she put probably more than 1. Spell on me because my friend Jane used to do that shit all the time to Guys she’s like I was like like how did you you know land that dude. She’s like I Put a Spell on him. You know, and then she she’d get sick of him and then she’d pick a fight with him and make him break up with her and she just, that’s just how she operates. It’s really funny. Yeah, sometimes I really miss my friend. Jane. She was, My cousin, Andrew’s best friend in college.
She said she has a a how do I know how she put it? She’s really looked quac.
Latious. Yeah, she she’s a librarian or she was I think she’s just plain damn crazy now. But uh
You know, she’s she’s really eloquent and and uh what’s the word articulate? Yeah, I’m not really eloquent. Sometimes though, uh, loquacious is the word I’m looking for. Thank you very much. Yeah, she is. She’s um
So is my sister actually um but what so am I what I want to be? What am I trying to say? What was I saying? Shit.
I don’t even remember but sometimes, I Miss Jane. You know, she lives all the way down in Gulf Shores though.
But uh, yeah, I had I’ve been having dreams about Brittany too. And uh,
I dreamt that last night I saw her at a gas station and like we looked at each other and it was awkward and I didn’t say anything to her and she didn’t say anything to me and we just kind of like missed each other. Like She pulled in and she was inside like paying for gas when I was like.
Uh, I don’t know. It was weird. It was like in the dream and I went, when I went inside, she was already back outside uh at the at her pump but she had already pumped the gas or something, I don’t know. Like it was crazy and then I had another dream about her the other night that she was uh in the backseat of a car. I was in and we just was like it was like awkward.
I don’t know. Just, you know how stupid dreams are? I guess I’m Happy kind of that I’m not depressed as fuck like I was yesterday. I mean it was like I had like a elephant sitting on me or something like, in my brain. It was like, no, you’re sad. And I was, but I feel. Okay. Now, you know,
I guess I am apprehensive though. That’s what that was my um point about talking about how they’re all like a friend group because like if I got mixed up with her and it went to shit, you know then she’s going to talk about everything and tell everybody everything about me. You know, I don’t want people. I don’t like. Like that. That’s a big reason. Why I didn’t date in high school, you know, I was like you know this this is going to last like a month if that and then She would be like oh yeah I was I had him, you know and It’s like no, you didn’t and that’s what I’m worried about a little bit but the chick, I dated, I treated her like a fucking goddess so, you know, like I was so great to her that uh, even when she made me mad 1 time like about a week or so, before I broke it off with her
Uh, I was so pissed off because she wouldn’t stop talking to this dude, and she was rubbing in my face and it’s like
Okay, you know, I don’t know what kind of retard you think I am but I just told her we was at the bar 1 night. Yeah and I was like look I’m going to leave and I’m just going to leave you here like either. You’re like I don’t care and I had driven her car. I had her keys in my Pocket. We you know we went together. I was like you find your own damn way home and she was like, oh shit, She didn’t know what to do about that. And uh Cuz I was, I’d had enough.
And um,
It’s just so stupid though, because I was I was really messed up when I met her and it it I don’t know. It’s like I said before if I would have met her either before I met my ex fiance, which probably would have been really bad too or maybe like a year or so after, which would have been a whole lot better, uh that might have went a little differently but
Um,
Anyways though. Yeah. Uh, she was being really like shitty about it though and so I was just like I’m leaving and either you’re staying here and finding your way home or coming with me. Like I don’t give a damn And I was so mad. And on the way back, like, from the place, I didn’t say a word to her and I ran over a curb. I was so mad and I just looked at her and I said, I’m sorry, you know, like, I’m sorry, ma’am.
And um, We got back to her house and I got my stuff and I was like, I’ve got I’m leaving like goodbye and she fucking started blowing my messenger up on the way Home telling me, like it really hurt to see you go, you know, and all this stuff and like Oh my gosh, she did, she kind of she begged me to take her back and I did and I knew better, but I did anyways. And, you know, same thing happened, like again. And uh, the last day I saw her, I was hanging out with that dude, and, and the chick that has been in my brains because they were like, her best friends, you know? And, um, Or the chick was and me and that dude, that’s how we got to be friends, right? I just said that though, like earlier in the post, but, um, like talking to that chick, like, that’s all she did was talk, shit about that girl that I was dating and how stupid she was and how she was still fucking around with that guy and told me like kind of gave me more of a story about how like her and that dude had been going back and forth for a while. What was so weird is he’s like this local musician, dude, and he’s a fucking like Republican and he’s rich as shit though. He’s like a rich kid. And uh, I think his dad was a studio musician or something. And, uh, I don’t know what. The hell she saw in him, I think she was just that’s what that girl was telling me though. Is like she was just that fucking stupid and the guy that she had dated before me was like the grossest stupidest guy. Anybody had ever met and she was telling me all about this stuff. And I just thought, dang, you know, and I decided to cut my losses. And uh, I dumped her like that was the last night I spent with her and then after that, I was just like, you know, And we kind of went back and forth, but not in a fighting way. It was the actually the most, the least, dramatic breakup I ever had because she wasn’t a piece of shit or anything. Like she was just some chick living her life, she wasn’t malicious or like evil or nothing, she was actually kind of boring. Yeah, to me and I was a whole lot more. I think I stressed her out a little bit because I’m so like crazy and I have so much energy and I’m like
I just, I don’t know. Yeah, we weren’t really that compatible though, at the end of the when it was all said and done, we kind of agreed on that. It was like, yeah. You know, you’re really cool. Like you’re the 1 of the coolest chicks I’ve ever met and she was like, you’re 1 of the greatest dudes I’ve ever met and I was like, yeah, thanks. Have a great life and that was it.
But uh,
Gosh. Yeah.
But she really was, you know, and I do sometimes look back and romanticize it because uh, when I first met her, I was insanely just smitten. That’s the most smitten I’ve ever been with a lady. And uh Gosh, you know.
But it had gotten Whittled down into a stump by the time I broke it off with her so I mean I was just thinking I’m remembering all that crap again it’s like dang yeah. But I do wish it could have been different because, uh, we actually had like this similar tastes in music.
And like we like she liked cool weird shit like the same kind of stuff that I did. And so does that girl that has been in my brains so it’s like, you know,
Oh gosh, I don’t know. I’ll figure that out. I’ll sort through that the rest of the day I guess. Um just thinking you know whether I should even comment anything on that post or whatever the worst thing, you know, she’s just going to ignore it. And then it’s like well then I mean I don’t know why she would be in my brains though. So anyways, I’m going to wrap this up because this is a long post. And I, I do. Hope that I’m not that audible outside of this room.
Haaa. Hello. Yeah, okay, yeah, that’s that’s fine. Ha ha ha ha.
Dang it.
Yay. Thank you.
Please.
