TUESDAYYYY

5:37 AM

5:38 AM
Well, I’m driving to work.

It’s uh, I know it’s late. It’s way later than I usually leave to go to work.

Well, this is pretty normal, actually, for me, the last week or so, I just haven’t given a shit. I’m sorry. Yeah, I’ve I’ve been sick.

I went to the doctor last week that I talked about that. Did I talk about that?

I don’t remember. Yeah, I don’t know. Well,

I did and I got antibiotics.

And,

I’m probably going to have to go back. Yeah.

I feel like crap.

But uh it’s kind of funny the difference in traffic you know, when you leave the house at 4:00 a.m. opposed to 5:30 yeah it’s a lot different. There’s nobody on the road at 4:00 a.m.

At 5:30. It’s just like it is during the day. Yeah.

Holy shit, there’s a bunch of garbage. Uh somebody hit a bunch of garbage and it went flying all over the road or And everybody’s driving crazy. Yeah. Everybody.

Everybody.

My son’s graduation, his fifth grade graduation is tonight. And I really need to go. I get off work at 11:00 today. I only got to work half a day so that’s That’s not so bad.

And uh, yeah, I don’t know like I’ll be glad when 1 day. I’m not like I don’t ever mention Brittany again. Yeah, I know I was like I was looking back at my last few articles because I don’t think I posted a lot. This like over the weekend I lost my it was almost a 50-day post streak. Yeah. Um, I just got I got in recording mode and uh, I’ve been fucking

Drinking. Yeah, I did and smoking and it’s like you have to stop. Yeah, like holy shit.

But, I got uh the concept album is coming along pretty well. It’s it’s going to take of course you’re never going to finish anything like that in a time frame that you think it’s going to happen in. It takes so long sometimes. To record like 1 Song.

But uh, I’ve got

I’ve got them down. Yeah. Um, some of the main ones I still got about 5 more songs. To to track. I’ve got about half the album, I guess. Yeah.

I look like shit too. I was looking at myself earlier. I was like damn. I look like shit.

I look like shit and I need a haircut.

I need to. Get back in to the gym. Like I just I took a week off, you know, last week cuz I was sick and it’s not like I wanted to I just didn’t feel like it

Yeah, I’m getting really burned out though. Like burned out on my job because it’s not going to go the way. I thought it was going to go anytime soon. So I thought, you know, I could just get into the maintenance program and all this shit. No, that’s not going to happen. Uh, at the very least until next year.

And I have no idea.

But uh, I don’t know. Just going to make a post. I just think it’s funny that like Brittany still messes with my shit. It’s like, it’s like You know, it’s some ego validation crap. And, uh, I looked at her story, I guess she can see who looks at her story as now. Uh, Yeah, on the Facebook and uh, but like energetically, I can feel her in my brain. That’s fucking, like, like that’s twin flame stuff. It’s fucking crazy. And it’s like That’s all she wanted was for me to fucking like, I don’t know, pay attention to her or something. Because I looked at her story from my other account, she hasn’t blocked. My alternate account. She pops up on the people I may know there all the time too. Yeah she blocked my main account it’s like shit like that. It’s like okay it’s just so I’ll pay attention to it.

And that’s like that’s that’s all it’s about. It’s like okay well you ruined my life. I don’t know if You thought somehow that? But somehow you thought I was ever going to forget that or something, you know, like

We’ll probably never end up together and I would be really surprised. But who knows? I have no idea. I was going to say it. I you know, I don’t know anything. But I know that I haven’t been like, I’ve seen her around. You know, like driving and stuff and uh but I’ve never been like, you know, out outside of a vehicle. You know, like face to face with her. I don’t know if that’s ever going to happen again. I don’t think. That’s a good idea, actually. I don’t know though. I know that she’s got a lot of issues. Worse than I do, but Yeah.

And I don’t know, you know, um, I know she has the same core numbers numerologically. As uh, my ex-girlfriend Hannah, which is really scary. Yeah. Yeah. And I didn’t know that because she spells her middle name differently than I thought she did and I didn’t realize that until way later and uh

Actually, this whole thing, like, with her has been a process of that, like, if I would have known who she was, when I first saw her, I would have talked to her. But then like, you know, way later on like almost a year later, I figure out who she is. And it’s like, wow, that’s really fucking crazy. And I’ve talked all about that in this blog, I have made. Over 500 posts on this blog. That’s, uh, I’ve had it a little over a year. Yeah. So, um,

And I still, I don’t remember how many posts or all my other blog, my main like my original blog

But I don’t think it’s, you know, it’s not, it’s it’s like 500 and something, is it? 700 and something? I don’t know. I don’t remember. I don’t remember things like that. I used to could remember stuff like that. Yeah.

I don’t know what else to say. It’s just like

You know.

Like like I made that post Yesterday? What was it was a big deal, Sunday night, you know. But today it just it feels like it felt before it happened. It’s like, okay, yeah, that’s whatever.

Yeah, I guess, haha. Thank you, please.