FRIDAYYYAYY

5:14 AM
Okay. Yeah. Driving to work. Of course, what else would I be doing? Haha I had another 1 of those nights where I woke up way too early. And then I didn’t go back to sleep until like 2:30. And so my first alarm goes off at 3:30. And I just kept hitting snooze until Until about 4:40 or so yeah. And uh, I got a shower. Got around. It’s the last day before the shutdown so I guess. I just I didn’t care.

I’m not going into the gym. Anyways, I thought I mean I would have if I would have gotten up earlier. But, you know, the last time last Week wasn’t that last week? It feels like it was a month ago, but it was just last week. Time is so weird and it like, compresses and decompresses. And

But uh yeah, the gym girl came in there, like she never comes in there that early and then, you know, she just happened to come bouncing in there.

And uh, Scared the living hell out of me. Oh my goodness!

And it’s weird. It’s so awkward and

Uh, it’s just like that with all of them.

And it sucks.

It, that’s how it was with Brittany, too. Yep. And the other day I was thinking I was like I’ll never mention Brittany again but she pecked all on my stuff last night and

It made me, I don’t know, it just

I mean, I do care about her. I had a really crazy dream about her too, and, uh,

You know, she’s my twin flame. What else can I say? Yeah, but it doesn’t make sense to me.

I was leaving the plant yesterday and the rain. Oh my gosh, it just came down all over me. Really hard. It was Like it, stung, it was fucking coming down so hard and the wind was blowing and so I had to walk. It’s probably about.

Oh gosh. From the exit to my car was probably about an 8th, maybe maybe a little more. An eighth of a mile, maybe something maybe more, maybe a little more, not quite a quarter of a mile. But uh I just had to walk that whole long distance and I got soaked and my shoes are still wet and my pants are still wet because I wear the same pants over and over. And my hat still kind of damp. It’s just like, dang and

But it’s the last day before the shutdown. Everybody’s ready? I’ll let myself Splurge a little bit. I got ten dollars worth of gas. And I’m going to do some work next week with Eric helping Eric’s dad, uh, make his little house thing that he’s building.

I really really, really miss my kids.

Yeah, I miss my kids the most.

Yeah, I’m going to get them. You know, it just, I’m just going to see how everything falls together next week. But uh, You know, maybe I’ll have enough money, everything will work out. And I’ll have house remodeling money on top of that. You know. Gosh, I just miss them. I just miss them so much.

I don’t know what else to say. Yeah, it’s it’s cuz I woke up. It was like 10:30 last night. And I would scroll a little bit on Facebook. I’ve watched some of these stupid reels and get sucked into some of them and You know, the next thing I knew it was 11:30, I was like, well that’s not so I want to try to go back and sleep lay there for about an hour. Something will get into my brains. You know, I’ll fucking I’ll Had to look up. Brittany again, you know it’s like okay because I looked at my other blogs and she had pecked all on my other blogs.

And it’s like, okay, well, I don’t understand why she can’t just message me and be like, hey, dude. You know, I miss you.

I don’t understand it. Yeah. Because, I mean, Without just,

Writing it off, as. Middle School bullshit, you know what I mean? Yeah. But I do love her very much. And I care about if she’s happy or sad, because sometimes I have to feel it. Yep. That’s twin flames. And I’ve talked to people who have, uh,

Said they had twin flames but they they don’t, I know some people on the internet, my friend Anna is the only other person that I know personally who Has a twin flame.

Did my ex fiance really have a twin flame? Probably not. She’s 1 of the biggest Liars I’ve ever fucking met uh, in my life. But she talked about it, that’s where I first really like, you know, saw it. She might have though. You know, I don’t know there, there was a lot of stuff about her that was real. Like she could totally speak 4 languages and she could totally play a whole bunch of different instruments. Very well actually. And she sure could sing Like she had the best singing voice. Oh my goodness. And so, you know, that was kind of the thing. There was a lot of stuff about her. That was not bullshit.

But there was almost as much if not just as much possibly more, right? Hahaha

That was just absolute crap. And, uh, I guess when it came down to the wire, you know, that’s what she was. I don’t want to talk about that. Yeah, God. I’m just thinking though.

What a crazy thing but that’s like The Narrative of my life. Sometimes, I’ll, you know, I’ve thought about like It doesn’t feel like this though, when I’m with my kids. Yeah, but what, I’m by myself like my life, I get by myself, which I’m by myself, most of the time, I’m by myself. Now, I’m alone, most of the time. Yeah.

Um,

Sometimes it feels like a show, that’s gone on for like, you know? Not just 1 or 2 Seasons, but like, 2 or 3, uh, 4 Seasons too long. I guess every year is like a season, right? But, you know, episodes, It’s like dang, it’s 2026.

There’s so much, Space.

Well, not really, I don’t know. I’m just I’m ready to get this day over with and start on my 9 days off in a row. And even though I’m going to probably work a few days, over at Eric’s

Doing stuff.

That’s going to be more fun than work because I really miss house remodeling. Like that was the best time I’ve ever had working was house, remodeling. So, you know, hopefully that’ll all go pretty well.

I get paid next Wednesday. I hope everything is going to be enough to cover. All my crap that’s 1 reason why I was like kind of jumped at the chance to do some work for more money. It’ll be a few hundred dollars. Yeah and that’ll make all the difference. So, Yeah. Uh, that’s about all I have to say.

He Hall.

Yeehaw.

Yeah, thank you, please.