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4:42 PM
Okay. Well, uh I’m just driving to work, right?

Yep.

Um, I’m really really tired. It’s Stupid, how tired I am?

Yeah, it is. And I’ve Got Tonight. And tomorrow night and then I get the weekend, okay?

Yep.

Um, hello. Yeah, I went to the uh, Food City earlier. I got some of my, like, It’s not it’s not daily pay it is some other crap. Yeah, and uh they finally implemented something I guess. Uh, at work. So you can get your money whenever instead of waiting, like, 2 weeks to get paid, you can get some of it early and I did that. So I could pay my last booking.com afterpay thing that I did back in. June, for Father’s Day with the kids.

In Rome we stayed at this 4-star hotel. Is it that crazy though? Haha I talked about, like, I’m broke and all that, but I do spend all my money on the kids all my extra money. Most of my money. Yeah. Goes to the kids in some capacity.

And uh, but I’ve got to start saving up because I just need to

And,

I miss my kids. A lot and it sucks.

But I feel better in a lot of ways. Uh having gotten off Kratom and I’m still kind of reeling from it though. My brain is still adjusting Uh, I had a really bad depressive episode earlier, a lot of that has to do with how exhausted I am though.

Which I think wouldn’t be as bad as uh, if you know, I wasn’t

Still dealing with not having any Kraton that’s stupid though, isn’t it?

Yeah, but I mean that’s just life.

I’ve been pretty good about, uh, I don’t know. I’m proud of myself. I guess. What am I trying to say? Like I’m I’m really proud of myself for not getting any more. Especially this week, it’s been really hard.

But, you know, in a couple weeks or so, I’ll be like, wow, why did I ever give a shit about this stuff, you know, like And I’m not going to say I won’t ever do it again, but It is going to be a long time before I do.

And now I’m stuck in traffic.

But that’s okay because I need to get to work a little later on Thursdays because of the gym, girl. And I know that’s really dumb. I tell you though what really freaks me out about uh, the ladies from work. And I’ve said this a billion times though is I don’t have anything in common with them and they love me. It’s really crazy.

Hello. Yeah, the super cute girl that I’ve mentioned before. She’s been like, hanging around, at break. She’s been coming up to my line, like we all kind of sit around in the same spot. The team lead dude. And, uh, me and like the other people on my team, there’s like 5 of us. And The she’s friends apparently or something with our team lead guy that she’s just coming up there to to like blabber about crap. So she can be next to me and uh it’s all I can do not to just turn around and tell her that she’s the cutest little lady in the whole universe. But uh, I don’t know, you know? And she totally like like she gets behind me and sits in a car and I’m sitting on the steps like in front of the line.

Oh my back’s turned to her and she’s like, looking at my phone and what I’m doing on my phone. It’s pretty funny and she’s just blabbering about I can’t even understand make out half of what she says, but I’m also wearing earplugs, I never take my earplugs out except at lunch. Yeah, and that’s, uh, at break. I don’t take my earplugs out. It really helps drown out. A lot of the bullshit. Um, It just gets on my nerves, a lot of the stuff. A lot of shit. Get on, gets on my fucking nerves at work, like people and stuff. It’s really bad. There’s this 1 Guy and I’ve talked about him before, he’s just the laziest. Most full of shit little, dude I’ve ever met well, not that I’ve ever met, but he is on the top 10. Like worst co-workers I’ve ever had. He’s number 9. Yeah which is pretty bad. It’s not as awful as like the dude from Honda Oh my God, that fucking pedophile from Honda, he’s number 1. And um, who else?

Uh well there was that little Peckerwood named Austin. Uh, he’s like number 2. I did house remodeling with him. I almost threw him off a fucking roof. It took every bit of uh, Restraint. Haha That I had. Not to throw him off a roof 1 day. It was really stupid. I don’t know what it is and it’s always the little guys. It’s it’s I don’t know what it is about me. Uh, It’s really stupid.

But there was this little dude, named Mickey. At the fucking, uh, Chicken plant. A couple years ago at Target that was this fucking Little turd named in. In. Yeah, I’m going to top half the top that in I guess. Ian

Um, and uh, well there were a handful of them at Honda really. But this other little dude named dumplings. I called him dumplings but his name was Dustin or something. He was 1 of Brittany’s friends and he’s the 1 who bowed up to me in the cafeteria. Which is when I decided I wasn’t ever going to talk to Brittany. I know I was like, you know, if this is her fucking friends, this is the people. She hangs out with, you know, like the fuck, all this shit. And she did, she posted stuff all the time with them. Like going out on bestie dates. And stuff. I know, it’s like best friend date with this guy and it was really like Weird and kind of pathetic, you know, I was just like, what? Haha and there was a revolving door of dudes. I noticed that she would go do stuff with. I don’t know what she does. So much now because she doesn’t have her stuff public anymore, except on her, um,

Massage therapist account and she probably did that for a lot of liability purposes because she did post a lot of dumb shit. I mean, I could just, you know,

It really sucks. On 1 hand because I cried about her and I know like, I wished I just didn’t ever talk about her ever. But, you know, I cried about her at least as much as I cried over my ex-wife, it was so crazy. But on the other hand, it’s like, you know, It totally makes sense. Like we were, so like we were energetically compatible. But everything else like we were so just not even. From the same Planet at all.

Like music and and just everything tastes and stuff.

Hey.

Somebody’s yelling at me, I think.

Um, from a van. Yeah, I don’t know. I don’t understand.

I think it was like a, a Mexican construction crew.

I don’t know. I do though, I have a polarizing effect on people. It’s really Stupid. They honked the horn at me earlier.

I was trying to see who it was.

Well God, I’m so tired. Yeah I was just kind of just thinking for a second.

I think it’s a culmination of uh, construction a combination. Yeah. Of like construction and a wreck or something and there’s a Honda Ridgeline in front of me. I wonder if I put the brake fluid in or the headlight. Hahaha.

I tell you though, the processes were a lot easier. At Honda than they are where I’m at now. Oh my God.

But uh, I am I’m really, really tired. Uh, so much actually to the point where it’s like I I start questioning You know, my purpose for existing, it’s like, why am I here?

I don’t know. Getting up on this van again. Let’s see if they yell at me. I have no idea. I have no idea at all. Like why they would yell at me about anything but

Uh, I don’t know.

Maybe it’s somebody that they recognize me from somewhere.

I need to get gas to

I need to get gas. Also. Yeah.

Hahaha.

But yeah that’s I mean that was my point I guess earplugs drown out all the dumb coworker. Bullshit the stuff I hear like people talking about and stuff. Like I don’t hear it so much when I’m wearing earplugs,

It’s also good to protect your hearing, you know, take care of your ears. Haha.

I’m passing this van again. Let’s see if they’re going to yell at me.

No, they didn’t.

Oh, I need gas but I am. Pretty close to my exit, so it’s fine.

Well, I don’t know.

Hello, Yeah, I don’t know what else to say, but it put an exclamation mark there.

That’s great.

Oh, it took it away.

I’m just driving to work, Making a blog post.

Oh my God, that’s what it was.

I was gonna get a shower, you know.

I usually get a shower And get ready and leave about 4, 30.

I get a shower about four and all that, and my roommate has her Dipshit fucking friends.

Oh my God, I said, I don’t even know where to start.

Yeah, but I’ll talk about that later.

Yay, thank you please.