SATURDAY

5:40 AM

Okay, let’s try this again, without going off on a rant about my ex-girlfriend

Um anyways, though, but she’s like,

It’s kind of making me feel sad because she’s Apparently she misses me and she’s bored and shit with the dude. She’s been with for like a year and a half and I don’t know.

I’ve talked about her in this blog especially but I just don’t, I don’t know that. I want to subject myself to her. Yanking me around and all that again, like she did a couple of years ago, so that’s all I’m going to say about it, y’all. But it’s the weekend and I am just

Really happy that I don’t have to go to work for 2 more days.

Right. Yeah. I mean Until Monday night. Oh, I got to wait until later so I can get my money stuff and then I can pay my rent and later today. Uh and uh, Whatever I have leftover, I’m gonna have to go get a longer bar for my weight bench.

And, That’s like the first thing and then you know maybe later I’ll get a rug or something and then it seems like I needed to get something else, but I don’t remember just more food

But uh I don’t know, another thing that’s kind of making me sad. Is that chick that got into my brains? Yeah. And uh it’s like well, you know? I, I’m really not. I’m kind of bound as in, like, I just cannot send her a friend request or like, try to contact her or anything. We’re going to have to cross paths out. In the, you know, wherever in the Physical Realm.

I’m, I’m Like, but it’s, you know.

Like it’s weird. Like she had to put some kind of spell on me or something because I can’t really, but like, The chicks at work. I found myself, totally unable. To like,

Look at any of them like this, especially this week, it’s just like, dang. I would rather have her, you know, the 1 that’s been in my brains but it’s like What is that even going to amount to though? Like, what is why don’t you even like, what the hell? So uh, you know, I’m just kind of dealing with that because it was like dang this was was actually really nice, you know, I was like, why can’t I just give her a shot but

Uh, it’s kind of complicated, it’s things. Can you know, are

I like I know exactly what I’m trying to say. It’s getting the words out of my brain.

I’m so tired. Yeah, but I’m still wound up cuz I had an energy drink at the last quarter and They did not stick me on the shitty process. At the end of the night like they have for the last 10 days, they put me. Um, On actually, the process that I hate even more than that 1, haha but it’s easier. But it’s okay and I got through it and it wasn’t that bad. But holy shitty assholes I’m tired. And I, I guess I mentioned a lot of other stuff in the post attempt, I was going to make, but uh, I just went too far

Talking about Stephanie. Yeah, yeah it’s picking up everything stupid and I’m talking stupid. But it looks like from the outside of the house that the painters are not done. It looks like they had to patch and fill in a lot of cracks in the wood and the siding and stuff. So it’s uh Looks like a heck of a job. It’s not something I would have wanted to tackle anyways.

Oh, you know, unless that was my job which would actually be pretty cool. I don’t know. I miss doing that kind of work a lot.

I really do miss house remodeling.

I tell you though, for real, like, if I could go back and pick a career, like when I was younger and just start off and be like, you know, I can do this and music, it would be construction, you know? I mean I just love it. It’s like you make things and build things and

Uh, you have to work your, you have to be in pretty fucking good shape too. Like Wow, you know.

But anyways, I like car factories, too. I don’t like, I, I don’t know what the hell. I don’t guess I would have done anything. I couldn’t have done anything differently than I did. It’s just sometimes you know how it is.

Just to think back about stuff. But I wouldn’t take, I wouldn’t take anything for the kids.

Like, I don’t even know how to Put into words how much. I just would never want to fuck with that it’s like no. It’s fine. All that was worth it.

Even though it still bothers me, like

But enough about that. Yeah, you know, I was thinking about that on the way home because that that I was thinking about that lady, you know, that had been that has been in my brains. And then I just, I imagine her like, you know, meeting my kids and meeting my ex-wife and all that and

I don’t know. I’m probably talking way too loud. I’m really tired though. I’m just so happy to be home. It’s like, well, I’m trying to wind down and I’m overthinking everything, you know?

Oh shit.

Well, what else can I say? I don’t know. I’m just like blah.

Thank you, please.