4:39 AM
Well, anyways, um, I woke up about an hour ago and I’m washing clothes. It’s Saturday morning.
I’m tired, but I was going to get the kids about 8.
My daughter. Messaged me and was like, get us later. So I’m probably going to shoot for maybe 10 or even noon.
Yep.
Um, yeah, I don’t know.
I had a crazy dream about this lady
That I worked with at the chicken plant a couple years ago, her name was Paige And she was the sweetest little thing I ever met and I almost asked her out. But, uh, I don’t know, we just don’t have anything in common and, I sent her a friend request one time but I cancelled it cuz I chickened out. And then she sent me a friend request. And that was like, that was totally, you know, I could have asked her out then
Oh my God, this fucking remote for my Overhead light. I just, I don’t know. I set it down places and I’ll hit it. And all I got to do is touch the damn thing and the fan, comes on. It’s really stupid. But anyways, what was I saying? Yeah, I mean, we liked each other. It was just I don’t know.
That’s kind of the thing about chicks from work. I just don’t think they understand that. I don’t have anything in common with them. And uh, You know, they all listen to really crappy music and I would have to put up with that all the time.
And without trying to sound arrogant and stuff or like I’m better than anybody else cuz I’m not it’s just
I don’t ever get out either.
But it would be nice to find some, someone who has like Similar interests and tastes and stuff as me. That’s 1 reason why I like, when that chick got into my brains, I was like, well, I would totally give her a chance cuz she’s cool. She likes cool stuff.
She’s intelligent, you know, and People intelligence is a of, oh, my God, I don’t want to use that word. What’s um,
Expresses itself. I guess there’s a better way to put it through different. Um you know different ways. Like take my dad for example, then that’s a bad example. As soon as I said that but he was very intelligent as in like his analytical and problem-solving abilities.
You know he uh, was a chess fucking Master too. And, uh, but he was a total ethically. He was a total piece of shit. And, you know, he and no sense of personal accountability at all. It’s like, damn.
But what’s so funny? Is those kinds of people though tend to go pretty far. Yeah. It’s like,
It’s really stupid and people, um, Well. You could still go pretty far as long as you get results, you know? But
It, it helps.
Um, gosh, there’s just so much to it like that, you know, to gauge intelligence is uh, It’s not always dependent on your music, tastes and stuff, but that does reveal a lot about someone’s character? Yeah. And uh, you know, I mean that’s what it all amounts to in the end anyways. Isn’t it? Is your character? That’s the most important thing.
You know, for a single person to have is character and, you know, And um,
Yeah. That’s right. My alarm just went off. It’s
Anyways, um, and so I just turned my damn fan on again.
It’s uh it’s really stupid. Anyways, what was I saying? Jesus Christ. I just drank some coffee. And I ate the last little bit of
Sandwich stuff. I had. That was uh,
Damn, my brains. I’m just really, really, really tired. It’s like I just don’t think I can sleep enough, you know.
But yeah your character it includes uh you know, all the good things you do. And all the bad things you do and that makes up who you are. You know, it’s always a mix of Those 2 things, you know, the positive and the negative.
What was my point to that? Oh yeah. I wish I could find somebody who has similar interests and, uh, Tastes as me, you know, it helps like if someone is like kind of, you know, artistic
Or you know, some kind of inclination towards the Arts because that’s all I do. You know I have a day job that I Space out. And Fucking just whatever about it. But, um,
You know, creative expression. There’s a lot of that’s what I look for, a lot of people. Um, don’t Really utilize the creative function, you know? And uh,
But they utilize other people’s, you know like that’s kind of the thing is like music tastes well. There’s really not. There’s I have a very
Um, what am I saying? It’s a varied, but also, Very selective. Yeah, tastes very selective tastes in music and everything. Um, to the point to where it is. Sometimes really alienating but I’m not the only person Who likes the stuff that I like, because You know. They have. They still get hundreds of thousands of. You know, uh, plays on whatever fucking platform.
You, you know?
Yeah.
I really need a vacation. I’m ready to retire from like work forever. Hahaha I’m just
Gosh.
I’m so tired.
But you know, you get to be so tired for so long. After a point it uh it really starts to affect your cognitive abilities. Which is what I’ve been struggling with for the um a while, but that’s kind of the funny thing. Like I can’t even taking the week off to rest which that was a month ago. With the shutdown week. Um, I didn’t, I didn’t more work. I did house remodeling work and uh, all this other shit.
But yeah, I don’t know. I had a dream about that chick and she is though and I was looking through pictures and stuff because she’s just She was my. Favorite 1 at that place.
That was this other little Hispanic lady, but she always had hickeys on her neck and she was really cute, but she was kind of, you know, gross like that. And, uh, I remember 1 day. I she saw me talking to that chick that, you know, I had a dream about and she got real jealous looking and I was like, yeah, well, you know, Like last week or something. She had this giant hickey like that took up half her fucking neck. Like I don’t want to mess with that. You know what I mean? Like what the hell? Crazy girl. And uh,
I don’t know, the other chick wasn’t.
Skanky like that. Yeah, she was really sweet and It’s just once I found her Facebook page and stuff and started looking around at her crap and this stuff she reposted and everything. It’s like we don’t have shit in common at all.
At all. Yeah, except you know just basic you know, physical. Attraction you know the chemistry was certainly there but I have that with pretty much everybody. You know, it’s like okay.
On another note too. The super cute girl from work. You know where I work now. Has been, I don’t know, has either been retraining or training somebody on this process. That’s right. Next to my process and it’s just like, dang, I’ve never been around her that much. Except for when I first started working there and she is just the cutest thing in the whole damn world but Again, we don’t have anything in common and I just imagine my kids meeting like these chicks and That’s what really like brings me back to reality when I’m, when I’m around my kids, I’m like, hey, what about this chick? And they’re just like, you Dad, she likes this stupid crap. And You know, it’s like, oh yeah, that kind of reminds me of who I am and I really don’t want to be with somebody. You know, like if you don’t have anything in common you know, the the Chemistry stuff like that. Only goes so far.
Which is a big reason I’ve been single for 5 and a half years. I mean I don’t date or anything though, you know. And uh, The last time I got mixed up with a lady that wasn’t Stephanie, Because she never leaves me alone either, but we don’t really have a lot in common. Uh, but like the last time, you know, that this chick I thought was really cool and I’ve talked about that, you know, that Tiffany chick
Uh, You know, it just she was lying.
I don’t know. It’s uh,
I haven’t had a lot of positive reinforcement but then you know what my point is. I just haven’t met anybody. That’s interesting enough.
For me to make an idiot out of myself over. Like I’m not doing that again and I’ve done that a lot. Brittany made a fucking huge idiot out of me. And uh, Yeah. And we don’t have anything. Like, well, we have Stuff in common. But not. Music tastes whatsoever like and it’s weird because she is the biggest crush I ever had. But
And the stuff she listens to. Is not just like, all that sucks. It’s like the worst music I’ve ever heard. Anybody listen to like she used to post stuff uh with the songs. She oh my God, she listens to shit like sleep token and fucking um
Oh my gosh, I don’t even remember the rest of the stuff. It’s it’s stuff, I never heard of, but it was awful and my daughter was having to explain and telling me was like, Dad, she likes that crap. You know, like she’s so basic, but she’s not. It’s just her tastes in consumable media is basic Uh, she doesn’t act basic at all. Which is weird. That that’s the, juxtaposition I found that fascinating. It was like, dang, there’s this because she looks like she’s From Another Dimension like an alien.
Oh, from another world and she’s just kind of fell into Earth somehow.
She’s um, She’s 1 of the most unique-looking people I’ve ever seen.
That’s really crazy.
Um, but anyways, yeah, I would really just wish you know, I’m just way overdue just way, way, way overdue for another romantic entanglement. And, uh, You know, I know there’s some probably somebody around here in Huntsville that is compatible. Which that’s what I was saying, like that chick.
Who’s not really in my brains anymore? She’ll come back for a minute and then leave it’s like well that’s okay like cuz I really don’t give a shit and I’m not making an idiot out of myself again but that chick that I dated from up here. Uh she was really cool though. We had a lot of stuff in common Um,
On paper, but energetically, we weren’t very compatible. She was really lazy.
And kind of embraced that, you know, I mean, she wasn’t there wasn’t like, really anything wrong with her but My energy level is like, you know, right now it’s not because I’m I’m tired, but, uh, At work every like it’s like I’m just like and that’s like I guess another reason I’m so tired. Hahaha
4:54 AM
Is because I run my ass off like a crazy person at work and you don’t have to, I just do. Like, I really, I don’t work. I perform and everybody stares at me all the time, it’s really funny.
Kind of makes me wonder because um helmet girl has been which really was like wow, she has been Uh, they’ve put her on processes like across where I can see her working. And it’s like she works. She runs around like a crazy person too and it makes me happy. But I’m just afraid that her and my daughter would not get along and I have no idea, you know.
But I guess 1 of the biggest things about Brittany that I learned because I am really naive and fucking stupid when it comes to human beings. It’s just because somebody looks a certain way doesn’t mean they are, you know,
Uh, that was a big. Thing for me to try to wrap my brain around. It’s like, she’s not, you know, the Alien queen From Another Dimension. She’s just this chick.
What was uh the lady from Target? Yeah, that was this chick from Target who. Um, I found out was married, but when I first saw her, I was like, you know, there’s my fucking demon goddess You know, oh my God. And uh, She she really wasn’t the only she was once I like when I found out who she was and looked through her face book and everything, and her husband, she’s got a little family and she lives in a trailer. You know, she’s just, I mean she’s really not she listens to cool music though and she seems really cool but
Uh,
I don’t know, it’s just like she’s really just some mom chick with neck tattoos. Hahaha You know, it’s like dang
I think I’ve talked about that though. It’s uh, you know, I I do, I see people and I make up stuff in my head about them and I know people do the same thing to me too. But it’s like,
Oh, it’s just funny how far I go with it. Yeah, it’s like like helmet girl and I made up like a whole comic idea about her. Um and there’s like the 2 guys up on the other line. Mr. Doperton
And doodoo faces, and those are like the villains. And then um, I made up a I don’t remember that guy who I don’t get along with on my line. And I can’t, I mean, he’s 1 of the most ignorant, fucking people I’ve ever met. I actually, he’s on my team, you know, it’s and it’s sometimes it’s really Really stupid to have to work around him it’s so fucking stupid. And uh, but I made up a character based on him too
He Makes people hold him like a baby. He’s like, goes around. And uh,
And he like threatens people at gunpoint and makes them He’s like Hold me like a baby or Die, Motherfucker! And she has to stop him because he’s terrorizing the town.
Making people hold him like a baby at gunpoint.
I don’t know. Yeah that’s
Uh that’s what the kind of shit that goes through my head in the course of a day, but I do that’s the funny thing about working these damn jobs. Is it tethers me to like a
You know, the monotony, it it grounds my shit and my brain can just go off. My mind just goes way off into. All these crazy places and that’s where I get like my best songs and and ideas from it’s really, really funny.
Which is why I like factory jobs and you know, where I work. Now it’s hard with the money. It’s pretty good. I’ve got money right now and I’m going to get the kids and probably blow every last cent of it. So, because that’s How it goes. I was telling uh, this 1, dude. He was asking me if I was going to get my kids. I guess 1. This was a few weeks ago, like are you getting kids this weekend, I was like, nope, I don’t have the money. If I don’t have 3 or 4 hundred dollars to just blow, I don’t get my kids.
He looked at me kind of crazy. I was like, yeah, I don’t. Really.
Care. What? You know, you think. But yeah like I do if I don’t have
I don’t have at least 3 or 4 hundred dollars to blow with the kids. I don’t get them all.
Yeah. Well anyways, I don’t know. This is turning into a long post. I’m really just waiting for my clothes to get done washing.
Yeehaw!
Thank you, please.
