5:08 AM
Yeehaw. I’m driving to work. Oh my goodness. Yep. Oh, it’s Monday.
I wonder what? Today, holds. Work and all that.
I don’t know, but I really, really miss my kids. And that makes me sad and it always happens. It’s like I’m sad. I miss my kids and then I get the kids and I’m like, yay. I get kind of sad though because it’s like, dang, I just feel like I miss out on so much. And I do. Yeah, I have and it sucks.
And it’s all because I’m Just,
I mean, I hate myself enough, I guess for real. It makes me feel horrible.
I feel like the shittiest Dad. I know, I’m, I’m not, but I don’t feel like, I’m that great. At all.
I’m just not, you know.
Um, I don’t even know when When the next time, I’ll be able to get the kids maybe Labor Day weekend, but I might not have the money then, you know, I think I get paid.
Uh, this week, but most of that is going to rent. Yep.
Well, anyways, what else? I’m just driving, I guess. Yeah.
Hell. It’s only the 24th though, isn’t it? Yeah, I don’t know. I think I get paid the 26th.
Yeah, I was just thinking
I’m really tired and my brain’s hurt.
Kind of they don’t hurt that bad but I’m just really exhausted. I almost called in But I decided I couldn’t. I really don’t need to call in. I don’t really have the points. I’ve used up all my PTO and I don’t know how I did that, but I did it happens. I guess it’s the same. Same way. I end up with no money and don’t realize how that happened and then it’s like, well yeah, when I go back and add everything up, it’s like you sure did. Spend all your money. Hahaha.
Yeah.
But I got up this morning, kind of early and I did my chores. And I left about 5. About 30 minutes later. Than I usually
Oh, the modern world. Yeah, I’m just driving down the interstate I was thinking about.
Heartburn and acid reflux.
It’s like yeah, well, that sucks.
You know, I’m all in a bland diet and all but uh it’s not that bad.
But I’m probably going to eat a crappy biscuit from the cafeteria when I get to work.
I don’t know, like part of me, you know, I feel bad if Stephanie read and stuff, but I didn’t say anything. You know, uh, That wasn’t that like yeah. You know, I’m not going to say anything that isn’t true. I think it’s just I don’t think she realizes Like, how just
I don’t know, like I don’t want to go off on a rant about her. Yeah, but she looks at people a lot differently than I do. Like, she’ll talk about dating mid people so she doesn’t get cheated on and I guess it’s like like what does that even mean? Like, like mid as in their looks, you know, it’s like, What a way to quantify a human being but you know what? That’s actually kind of normal. And, uh, you know, it’s just to me that’s just skanky as hell
I’ll never. I’ll never see things like that. Uh, But that’s how a lot of people are with other people. It’s like
Hell, the bulk of the population.
Like, you know, sex and food and Fucking whatever. Like, that’s all they care about. Really, you know?
Yeah.
I don’t know. I’m really tired of Really, really tired. And
I don’t know that I’m even going to post this.
I just miss my kids.
And that makes me sad.
Thank you, please.
